Hard for BJs but not insertion

I usually get hard for getting head but when it comes to having insert I go floppy straight away and have to pretend that I’ve come early, very embarrassing and this is going on a long long time. I’ve always been a big fan of getting BJs but I know my ED is porn induced, it’s been happening for about 10yrs give or take. It improved in the last couple of years when I gave up watching porn but I relapsed badly around last October. I know my PIED is back now. It so embarrassing at my age (mid 30s)...what the hell am I doing!? I need encouragement guys, assurance that it’ll get better. I’ve gone 6weeks rebooting lately but I’ve edged a couple of times in last couple of days without actually masturbating. I had a wet dream last night but it was pretty much a porn video in my mind...should I be worried?