Guys, I think you need to read this story of mine.

background: 28 years old. Have been PMO for 10 years. Tried to stop for 2 years. No irl person ever knows about this addiction. barely talks to females. hates people in general.

Here it goes:

Since two weeks ago I have stopped PMO completely ( Although I look at softcore sometimes but manage to stop myself ) and to add fuel to fire I have been having problems with friends, family, and my job. The problem had nothing to do with PMO but This time I was able to Stop myself from masturbating. Later, I started to feel anxiety and the need for sexual acts. And so, A week ago I had sex with a prostitute just to satisfy myself a little and there you go, ED(erectile dysfunction). But I wasn't sure. Maybe I was nervous.

What did I do? Wanting to forget everything, I traveled to nearby country on my own. Went to some malls at day, walked around at night. I couldn't believe I had ED, so I found another prostitute, ad guess what? ED strikes again. And the a third time also. All what I was thinking about was "Look what porn did to me" and "I'm a weak-willed idiot" .

On the last day (last Friday to be exact), I went to a small nightclub for the first time in my life ( I don't usually go to crowded places and I don't drink ). The first girl I talked to was a very beautiful woman and we hit it off. We went back to my room, started chatting for 2 hours I think. Then down to business. But, ED again. I told her it was stress. You know what she did? She kissed me and hugged me. We kept talking till morning. She was cheering me up. I promised her that in 3 months, I will return a new man. We exchanged numbers. We chat everyday now.

What did I learn from this? EVERYTHING! These sexual images and videos we call porn are nothing but misery to me, to us all. Time to be someone That I am worthy of her, and Proud of myself. I don't think I am the only one who had this problem, and I believe We are not alone. We are a team here.

Increase the exercises in the gym, concentrate on your job and hobbies. Stand firm and confident in what you do. Go learn something new. Meet new people.You are fighting addiction! It's never easy, But it is worth it! Do anything to keep you away from this darned abyss of despair.

Thanks for reading this and I hope by sharing this story somebody, somewhere, benefited from it.

tl;dr : ED confirmed. Life ruined. Building it again. Your help appreciated.

 

Thanks
and yes i'm totally and finally motivated!