Got a date this weekend

In my opinion dating advice only goes so far. Experience is the best teacher and at least I can say I got that out of this event. I'm not saying that I'd be the most suave son of a bitch on a date, but it really didn't help that when I got to her house I lost all interest in her and when she was in my car she was just so awkward and weird. It really is because she's got very bad anxiety, but it was just getting on my nerves. I'd ask her to read directions for me and she just held the phone not saying shit. Oh my god I was annoyed. I'm not gonna get into all of it, but holy fuck dude. Holy fuck. It was bad.

As far as that Wal-mart girl, I was actually planning on going yesterday to find her and ask her out, but this whole ordeal with this girl happened and I went on a date with her instead. Maybe next weekend I'll look for that Wal-mart girl, but I really don't know. The experience was so bad that I really don't know when I'll get over it hahaha. I hope it's better by next weekend. I know I'll eventually get out there and meet some girls. Now I've relapsed twice today after going 20 days and I'm not sure how much that has fucked me up. I doubt it's undone all of my progress, but who knows? Earlier I went out to town after my relapse and my anxiety was still gone and my depression was still gone so that's a plus.

Anyway, I appreciate your feedback. I'm gonna try not to feel guilty because if I don't like her then I just don't like her. Here's to another 20 days pmo free and here's to that cute ass Wal-mart girl and other girls hahaha.

 

@Vinum Sabbathi yeah it is what it is maybe next time just playfully tease her a little bit for not opening up to conversation. but it sounds like you didnt really want her anyway.

 

That was spot on, very well done.

 

Yeah I honestly didn't want her. If I did, I would've been flirting with her and teasing her like you said, but I just didn't like her. Turns out she has some very serious issues that she needs to get through. I'm not gonna go into details, but I just don't know what I can do for her. She's a sweet girl, but she's had some shit happen to her that needs to be dealt with. I wish her the best.

 

I get what you're saying, but I've actually kept on with NoFap even when I was extremely depressed. When I first started on my last streak I was so depressed that it scared me, but I kept on going with NoFap. There were so many times where I almost gave in because I had already felt bad, but I didn't. I have been able to deal with negative emotions, but you're definitely right that I just give in when things happen in my life. With this date I just couldn't handle it. It's no excuse, but I really haven't even described exactly what happened that night. All I will say is it was much more than a simple bad date. It's in my top 5 worst days of my entire life. Absolutely nothing went according to plan and it's just insane how terrible it was.

You're definitely right though. I need to be able to deal with negative emotions better. I can handle them sometimes, but there are definitely times where I just give up and say fuck it, I'm gonna fap and see if that helps. I'm gonna try to get better with that.

 

It could of been worse. On my university Facebook group they were sharing bad first date stories and some of them are horrifying but also rather funny. On one date a woman got mad and threw a bottle of wine at her date, another accidently set their dates hair on fire, this guy told a woman he wanted to suck her toe and there was this man who told his date she had big breasts in Italian and then told her he had a medium size dick.

 

I appreciate you trying to make me feel better. I'm getting better about it now. It was definitely a learning experience. It was horrific, but it was an experience and I learned something from it. I'm gonna move on now.