I have tried to abstain from fapping but always end up failing. I just king get into my head that its not ok to fap. I may be ok for after a few days, weeks etc but always end up in the gutter. Also when im not fapping I just find it hard to get it up as nothing excites it when im not looking at p. Not sure if I can do this? Or if I do not sure how long it will last. My brain just seems to think its ok even though i know its not.