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Funny how "What if she thinks I am creepy, a pervert" was actually true all along

Discussion in 'Compulsive Sexual Behavior' started by ultrafabber, Apr 10, 2019.

  1. ultrafabber

    ultrafabber Fapstronaut

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    I think this applies to many PMO addicts but i will only speak for myself and if others want to contribute then they are more than welcome to.

    I always felt that way around women. I always felt i was creepy and that my sexual interests and intentions were off and perverted. I did not feel at ease around them and i always felt guilty. I was actually avoiding getting a gf and avoiding women because they would then get closer and know my "dark side"

    Up until very recently i used to think it was just erroneous beliefs on my part, but looking back they were actually very true: i was a creep and a pervert - most notably when I was masturbating to "straight porn", which is actually you in a room sitting near other people having sex while you masturbate. That is 100% creepy behavior.

    One other way that was definitely creepy on my part was how i looked at women - but only when they didn't see me. It rarely happened in "real life" but it always happened on the screen or in my fantasies. I was a dirty pervert in the way i looked at pictures or clips of women or the way i fantasized about women. I'm talking dirty old man type.

    I didn't register it though because i just brushed it off as being "a fantasy" - "they don't know about it so it doesn't really count".

    But the thing is I really was a creepy and a pervert, those beliefs were right all along.
     
    Last edited: Apr 10, 2019
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  2. TimeToQuitNow

    TimeToQuitNow Fapstronaut

    Yea this addiction is a creepy one and to some extent we are all perverts. I think it's the part of the reason why awareness of PMO addiction isn't that prevalent. Addicts are often afraid to tell people their addiction because of the stigma behind it and the perverted nature of the subject.
     

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