Day 1... I'm starting a new thread/journal in the women's section now. So today is day one for me because I masturbated yesterday after 23 days clean. That was the longest streak that I have ever done and before that I was only able to go 2 weeks. Although I was still having urges and catching myself fantasizing I feel like I was doing pretty well. I was staying strong and continuing to turn my attention into other avenues and basically just fighting the urges. I learned yesterday that I cannot touch myself at all! I don't have the willpower to start something and not finish. My thinking yesterday was to see if I could just get aroused because I feel like I was kind of in a flatline with my body although my mind was still having fantasies and i still wanted to MO. Needless to say I was able to get aroused and have an orgasm. The only positive that came out of this was that I masturbated in a completely different way than I normally do and was able to have an orgasm. I have always only been able to masturbate in one way so that was interesting.Then came the chaser effect so naturally I masturbated 2 more times in my normal way. It even crossed my mind this morning but I'm telling myself now and I'm moving on with my day. I know that I can do this! I can continue without porn easily and I know I can continue without masturbation. If I slip up every now and then I'm not going to beat myself up it is still way better than the 10 to 20 times a week that I was doing it. I have noticed that today I feel like some life has left my body. I don't really know how else to explain it but I have had this juicy sort of Sexual Energy built up inside myself that I kind of enjoyed that is no longer there today. I feel somewhat drained, if that makes sense. So today is day one of nofap and my slip up was just a hiccup and my journey to recovery.