Soooooo...I have managed to go through 40+ years of life without a addiction to drugs or alcohol, although I did smoke cigarettes for a period. I never thought of porn as an addiction. It is awesome, right? Porn used to be a fun distraction. Yes, it costs money and time and led to ever increasing kinks, but there was no problem, right? Obviously, I have been wrong all these years. Now porn is controlling my life. I work from home and have a great job, honestly. I now find that not only am I jerking off at night but now, I am during work hours a lot. I am ruining my life and it is only getting worse. The kicker is that the fact that I am ruining my life and turning it over to porn is a HUGE turn-on. Goddess porn is winning and owns me. The fact that I am on here and admitting it shows that I know deep down that I need help but I try to stop but my mind is filled with the need to bate and then the cycle starts all over again. I want to ruin myself and destroy my life for porn. FML. I am sure I am not the only one who has gone through such self-destructive tendencies so if anyone has advice, please let me know. Thanks in advance.