First Post/Introduction

I finally decided to make an account after numerous failures. I started when I was a Sophomore in high school. I didn't realize I had a problem/addiction until my Freshman year of university. Since then I have been trying to stop my addiction. I'm currently a Senior and have failed countless times. I would stop cold turkey and then have a major binge of PMO. I was sort of embarrassed and prideful about letting anyone know about my addiction. I thought if I told anyone they would think of as a pervert and that I did not need anyone else's help. I really hope that participating on the forums and tracking my progress will help me beat this.

I really want to beat this because lately I have been finding myself have strong cravings to watch porn. It was never this bad before as it is now. I'll just be reading a book or watching TV and I'll get the thought of watching porn. Each time I succumb to the cravings I feel ashamed, depressed, and undisciplined. I'm also constantly thinking about porn. Throughout the week I have debates to myself on whether to watch it or not; comparing the benefits to the consequences. I feel that my thoughts are just bombarded with thoughts of porn. I'm scared that if I don't stop now that this will spiral out even more.

If everything goes well, and I complete my goal I hope that I'll be able to help others. Please let me know how you have handled your situations.