First Journey Diary

Discussion in 'Women in Reboot' started by 90sprincess, Dec 14, 2018.

  1. HopeForBrightFuture

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    Letting go of resentment against my mother was a big turning point for me. It didn’t completely happen until a very uncomfortable session with my therapist earlier this year that involved tears on my part.

    It’s heart warming reading your progress. Hang in there!
     
  2. Retro Girl

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    You're doing good, and as you say having much alone time is a big problem.. being here helps with that very much, because apart from feeling you have people to accompany you on the journey, it holds you accountable as well. Just keep fighting off those urges, I'm sure you'll do great. Starting day with a healthy breakfast also sounds good idea.. we take care of our mind body and soul.. All the best!
     
  3. 90sprincess

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    I have made it past a week. I'm very proud of myself, but the work must continue. I have to keep focusing on why I want to stop porn and how my life will change for the better. It's hard for me to move on from relapse, because I tend to extra hard on myself. One relapse will cause me guilt for months. Guilt should not be a motivation, but the despair I will after is a motivating factor. It's a feeling that I hate feeling and that fuels me to become stronge in fight against porn.

    Later on I'm going to be spending some time with my grandparents, I'm happy to get out of the house and get some fresh air. I'm going to take small steps, my next goal is 21 days.
     
  4. GhostWriter

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    21 days is noble, but I would encourage you just to double it to 14. A lot of times, we embark on a mission, we get overly confident, and when we fall, we fall hard. Remember, take it one day at a time. Take it in bite size pieces. Don't get in too much of a hurry. And also remember, you didn't get this way over night. You're not going to fix it over night.

    Celebrate your 7 days! That's really great. Very well done my lady.
     
  5. Hey @90sprincess congrats on getting past one week ! Hope you enjoyed your Christmas & stay with your grandparents..

    Any further update would be welcomed whenever you're up for it ! Stay strong, safe & vigilant out there :)
     
  6. Solomon435

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    Woah, what a read. I'm sorry all that bad stuff has happened to you. I wish I could help you better, but I haven't experienced the same adversity you have.

    I'm glad you've told us your story. If there's anything I or any of us can do to help, please don't be afraid to let us know. I'm interested in reading your journal. All the best!
     
  7. 90sprincess

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    This is going to be short. I am still doing good, but I haven't been feeling good at all. I've caught staph again, I had cellulitis last year and now I got it again. I really don't have any energy to do anything, but thank you guys for your encouragement. I will probably be absent for a while. :emoji_mask:
     
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  8. Solomon435

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    That's okay, I hope you feel better later! Feel free to reach out of you're in trouble.
     
  9. 90sprincess

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    No porn, so far. I haven't had any urges to watch it. I feel really fuzzy today as if I can't concentrate on anything. I love reading and wanted to read a book today but I can't even make out the sentences. And I feel really jittery and frustrated and it's probably pms, it's so frustrating. I'm so close to being a month free of porn and I'm proud of myself.
     
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  10. GhostWriter

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    And I am so very proud of you. You're on a streak. Reaching out here always helps with you are in need of encouragement.
     
  11. Solomon435

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    Wow, nice! You're almost there for a month. It's gonna be tough but I hope you can resist and come out triumphant. As Ghost said, we're here to help if you need it!
     

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