First day of hopefully a successful journey

Hey all. I dont know what to put so ill just put everything.
Im 23, and im a PM addict. I started PM when i was in junior school, in the UK. I was about 10 at the time. I dont know how it started it just did and eventually i was masturbating daily. Sometimes it was more than once a day.
Its never been a huge issue with me in terms of effecting my daily life. I dont think about porn or masturbation all the time, but when im tired i start to think about it a lot more. Im also triggered very easily, and lately its getting worse. If im on instagram and see something, ill slowly drif towards looking for more online. Ive take steps to reduce my exposure but its still pretty bad.

All this has led me to develop PIED. Ive had this since highschool. I remember doing things with girls but i could never maintain an erection for any period of time, even though i was still aroused, my body just gave up. I only found out about PIED though about 3 years ago, and it made everything click into place.

Im now engaged to a beautiful and wonderful woman. But i feel so dirty when i watch porn and masturbate. Its like im sneaking around behind her back sometime. We do have sex, but i use sildenafil to give me a little boost every now and then to help me maintain my erection.

Anyways yeah, im sick of the sneaking and the low feeling i get after the act, im so unmotivated lately, and tired. I want this to be my official start to being sober for a very long time from PM.

I look forward to talking with the community, and i hope youll all help me to reach my goal, itll be hard but i hop i can get there.