Feeling lonely in the up coming holidays

Holiday is like normal day to me. Nothing change rather it is holiday or not.

 

Hmm. I am like, "I am just home on my own".

 

Not doing anything. Feeling lonely. Wish there was a girl to spend my time with. I'll need to keep trying to make a connection.

 

F what other people think.

 

I kind of see the emotional fixation on the holidays as lemming like behavior. Even with people who celebrate it they would not deny it's very commercialized, and who actually listens to Christmas music, that much in a given period of time, and actually enjoy it? It's not like it's a genre people like.

Now I'm not into ruining anyones good time or being a party pooper, but almost everything about it is just kind of .. well, fake. Like porn.

 

It's weird because I usually hate Christmas, but this year I am actually feeling more into Christmas than past years. A lot of it has to do with getting a great job this past August.

 

I agree. Are we better off thinking about things as they really are or getting lost in the blind perception of holiday joy? I don't know but I'd rather see things for what they are and I know I will never again enjoy Christmas like I did when I was a child. However I do still look forward to the excitement my future children will experience during the holidays and maybe that feeling will be reawakened even if it's only slightly.

 

I can’t enjoy anything, so everyday kinda sucks lol and for the holidays I’m chilling at home

 

I did a mini vacation in NYC by myself and kept my self busy sight seeing and visiting historic monuments in nyc's different boroughs. I've decided to just do vacay's in the upcoming years. So I can at least enjoy the season since, I do not celebrate the holidays any more (mostly due to me leaving religion and the commercialized present buying behind).... after NYC I flew to Ohio to visit family I haven't seen in many years.