Feeling Alone

I am only 25 and have dealt with so much in real life. Now dealing with a broken spine , and rare form of cancer.

The love of my life left a few years ago , and now I just can't seem to get into a real solid relationship with a woman because of disgusting porn.

Then when you go onto these sites you feel like you have a relationship with these women cause they make it easier to be around with.

 

@ColdCutTurkey As Bilebal put it, you're a strong man. And we're here for you.

As for developing a relationship with the women on porn sites, it's true: when I watch porn, most of the times I fantasize about having a beautiful relationship with these women, even being married to them. And in my imagination I'm always some sort of super hero that can satisfy them in any ways possible while all they want is please me and do whatever I ask them to.

The problem is I am almost the opposite of what I think a man should be like. I also used to be immoral and disloyal in my former relationships, because I always thought I deserved better without offering anything. But now that I fight against PMO, every successful day without PMO gives me hope and makes me feel more and more self-confident. It's the modest satisfaction of doing the right thing.