Extremely aggressive

Hey I can relate to some degree with you...
I am in a time of healing with my wife where sex is off the table for awhile and I am also making a hard effort to stop PMO.
I feel like I have less patience with everything especially my wife! My brain makes get frustrated over the dumbest shit and then goes right to feeling bad for myself that I am not getting the "release" that I have deemed my stress relief. I feel like it is a process of weaning off of your dependency on the shit in your life that is not good for you. Your body however still craves it but your making your mind stronger by fighting it. It reminds me of putting a heroin addict in a room and watching them growl in anger as they detox off the drug...it is not pretty to pull this stuff out of us!!

Be strong!!

 

2 things.

I found once I quit numbing my feelings with continual M, I was left to deal with them in all thier magnitude. Being PMO free definitely let me experience feelings more intensly. Good or bad but definitely stronger. I too had aggression. Rage came as the brain fought to keep the addiction, and spilled over into other normal aspects of my life. (btw this is how women know you're PMO. You are meaner and shorter tempered and have less empathy.)

Second of all, by manifesting agression, why was I experiencing pain, and where is it coming from? Being off PMO has forced me to actually deal with inner turmoil in a non destruction way. A lot of interspection and apologies are required to grow into the new me. Now whenever I feel something deeply, like urges, injustices, frustrastions or hurt I recognize these normal human feelings that can healthily be reconciled. I develop a strategy to move past them and never try in bury them under the lie of Fap.

*Note just as the hurt and anger intensify; so does the joy and contentment. It's worth it.

Best of luck.

 

irritable, restless and discontent are three words that spring to mind. It's very common with addictions both when being active and abstaining. Your brain is probably screaming out for dopamine like a kid who's been told he can't have a candy bar in a candy store. Meditating helps, learning to take some time to yourself at the end of the day or in the morning to reflect. Some people find learning a contact sport helps manage their anger if they are naturally aggressive. I learned how to write down my feelings when I was doing my 12 step programme, that helps a lot, because you are putting down how you feel on paper, it's therepeutic and you also look at how your behaviour has affected others and how certain situations affect things like pride, self esteem, fear etc being aware of these things helps you to understand how to manage your anger.