Hello Guys, I haven't been here for the last 5 months, but everything is going well. I'd like to share some of my experiences from the past 10 months or so, even though I signed up to nofap 2 years ago. If you have been here long enough, you probably bumped into my posts and you probably got tired of me saying the same things over and over again, that the first and foremost reason that I managed to keep myself clean, is the zero tolerance about P or M or O. It sounds obvious but it's not. What I'd like you to understand, that if you let even a little P, or even a little edging into your life, you won't reboot. Maybe you won't totally relapse but you take unnecessary risks. My second point is -as always have been- that you must take care of your core problem. It can be loneliness, feelings of abandonement, lack of self esteem, whatever, you must try to heal that. Sounds easy, but you probably need professional help, and you most likely won't be able to do on your own. This is the main stumbling block for most people, as we feel ashamed about this addiction. And rightfully so. Whether you're religious or not, the story of The Fall holds valuable knowledge to us. What was the first thing Adam did when he did something bad? He hid. He tried to cover his shame, and tried to hide from God. I think this is a core behaviour for us, humans. If we do something bad, we want to hide it. But just like in the case of Adam, as hiding didn't do him any good, we must resist the temptation to hide like a wounded animal. That means enlisting the aid of someone you know and trust. In real life. Not just on the internet. It's cruical. Trust me. What you can expect in 10 months of abstinence? Wet dreams. Ups and downs. Freedom. Wet dreams are my major complaint about the whole nofap thing. Twice in every month, sometimes more. I don't like them. Hopefully they will end soon. Ups and downs are expected in your mood as well. It gives a great sense of rightful pride when you can say that you no longer watch porn and masturbate. You'll look like a superhero. Unfortunately it's a less like Batman and a more like Hancock, especially in the beginning, but it will get better. But sometimes, when you are tired, or frustrated, or annoyed, the temptation will arise to alleviate it the old way. You shouldn't expect urges to go away completely, I still have them, but they are easily resistable. And you will have lots of freedom, and not just because the extra time you suddenly have on your hands. But you will be free to not do something that you did for a long time, and that feeling my friends, will totally worth it. Some of you may have read my journals, but if you didn't, I tell you that it might be a good idea, to browse it. In my first one I went for 95 days, in my second one, I don't know, but it still lasts. Anyway, you will notice that I have had a girlfriend since Dec 9 of 2014 and as we are both devout Christians, we decided not to have sex until we get married. Now, the relationship has flourished, and we got engaged a bit more than 2 months ago, and we will get married next year. 3 weeks and a few days remain only. I'm really excited and a bit nervous as well, as a long time has passed since I did anything sexually explicit, so I don't know what to expect. Will the urges come back? Will I have premature ejaculation? Or the contrary? Or will everything be normal? I really hope so. I did everything within my power (and enlisted the power of Jesus as well) to get rid of PMO, and purify me as much as I can for my future wife. Now, the time has come to reap the rewards. Say goodbye to celibacy and say hello to married life. Stay strong brothers and sisters, friends and foes. It's really worth it.