Everytime i drink alcohol i have so bad urges fuuck.

Maybe you should just cut it out completely? At least for the duration of your reboot. The "2 cups" made me lol. I'm just imagining wine in a red solo cup.

 

Dude its okay, you are still you and you are in controll of what you do. As long as you understand that you are still acountable for what you do even if you are high or drunk, you ll be okay. Nothing has changed, you are still on NoFap, still want to get better and still you. Hold that thought and dont get fooled by yourself

 

A couple of drinks can certainly lower your inhibitions, i.e. your rationality starts to take a back-seat and your instincts start to take over. What's more, since you're doing it right before bed, you're lowering your inhibitions right before a common trigger (being in bed).

Also, drinking to help you sleep is a horrible idea - it doesn't work and it in fact lowers your sleep quality (do a quick Google search - the research is vast and decisive). There are much healthier ways to get a good night's sleep - exercise, good diet, putting in a solid day's work, limiting caffeine and nicotine ... To get yourself on the right track, take one day and just tire the living hell out of yourself so you're ready for your head to hit the pillow when it's time. The value of getting regular, quality sleep is often understated ... It's one of the number one things that has helped me keep a streak.