Erectile Disfunction and questioning my sexuality

Hello.

I'm a 32 year old male who has gone through life always thinking i was straight, i've always been attracted to women, always fell in love with women and always had meaningful relationships with women. My sexual relationships were pretty normal but i've always had a few instances when i couldn't get an erection, i tried to never make a big deal about it because i know it happens to a few men, so i never thought much of it until about 4 or 5 years ago, i always watched porn, probably at least once a day and one day i found a video of gay porn and it got me really aroused, i also didn't want to make a big deal out of it because i've read online that what you watch in porn is not what you actually like, i mean i used to watch bestiality porn too and i never went out thinking i was going to have sex with any animals. But as time went on i started watching less straight porn and more gay and transwoman porn, this started messing with my head pretty hard, i was having more and more trouble getting erections and it affected some of my relationships, in one i got cheated on and i think that was a big reason why and the next one after that my self-esteem was so low and my insecurities so high that i constantly accused her of cheating even without any proof of it, obviously one day she got tired of it and left me, then i started to think that maybe i was actually gay or at the very least bi, but that didn't make any sense to me because i've never been romantically attracted to men, i don't see myself dating a man, i even tried to talk to some men online but when it came time to actually meet them i could never go through with it, not that i think there's anything wrong with being gay, i'm not homophobic in the least bit but i just didn't feel like doing it. Other than porn i don't find men attractive but sometimes i masturbate thinking about having sex with men and transexual men, i don't know if it is something i really want and i'm repressing it or if it just is something that i created in my mind due to watching porn.
I've been dating this girl for a few weeks know and i was scared of getting intimate with her because i knew i wasn't gonna perform, i tried to avoid it as much as i could but one day i couldn't and obviously i couldn't get an erection either, this is really messing with my head and i don't know what to do, i've never been to a doctor for this nor have i ever used pills, are pills an option? I'm thinking about holding off masturbating and watching porn to see if i see a change or if these thoughts mean i'm actually bi or gay. I would like to know if there is someone out there who's been through this or something similar. Any thoughts and advice would be greatly appreciated.

Sorry for the long text and thank you.

 

Thank you for your answer, i'm on day 5 of non PMO and my urges are getting very strong, what really confuses me is that now when i think of a woman i can't get an erection but if i think about men or transwomen i get a semi-erection and sometimes a full hard on. I keep thinking that i should try to be with a man for the first time to see if i really like it or if it's just something i made up in my mind. I even started looking at transwomen hookers online but i don't have the courage to follow through with it, I'm really confused and don't know what to do, is porn really the problem or do i have actual sexual desires with male/transwomen?

 

Thank you for your answer and support. I'm on day 17 now and the urges are getting less and less stronger, i've had a few erections but no urge to watch porn at all. I'm happy to report that when i get an erection now it is thinking about women. I'm still a little hesitant to be with an actual woman because i'm affraid i won't be able to perform because of my ED. I'm trying to go a very long while without porn and then and only then try to be with a woman again.

I have to be honest i read a few articles online that said nofap and ybop were bullshit and pseudoscience, i thought maybe porn wasn't really the reason for my thoughts but i still decided to try it nofap anyway, after all i had nothing to lose, and i'm happy to say the gay/transwoman thoughts have really faded so i think it's working, i'm not watching porn ever again, i'm not thinking about sex or porn at all and when i do it's with women on my mind now, hope this keeps improving and the next step will be to see if my ED was actually porn induced, but that will take a little while longer i think.

Thank you for your words once again.