Don't Edge

Yeah. Don’t.

There are countless posts out there of why you shouldn’t edge, but this is my take on it.

I was at 9 days, and I was in bed, and had some bad thoughts, thinking too long about P. and I edged. Tbh, this is not the first time I’ve done it for that last reboot. I’ve done it on and off. Mainly off, but still… it basically doomed me.

I am more addicted to M than P. so edging was the worst thing I could do. I basically M’d with no O. breaking my goals.

Edging excites you. But doesn’t relive you, in fact I’d say it has the opposite effect, if anything you get worse. It still damages your re-wiring, making it useless. And instead, you build your tension with no release. I was told today in fact that I was very irritable and unfocused. And I realised this was due to me edging.

I regret it totally. But I’ve learnt now. An absolutely no touching rule for me. And should be for everyone. So don’t make the mistake I did, edging is a relapse, without the O. good luck everyone