I am 23F and have been sexually active for about 6 months. I have never had an orgasm during sex and have only had an orgasm with my boyfriend twice which was after sex using a vibrator. I have become so numb that even the vibrator didn't feel good. I have been MO'ing since very young just unaware of what i was doing. Started watching porn at about 11. I have been doing it everyday since anywhere between 2-15+ times. Usually averaging about 4 times. Currently I am on day 3. Had urges but nothing major. On day 2 I had a dream I was masturbating and then I woke up. I have had orgasms in my sleep before but it didn't reach that point. My goal in doing this is to actually experience good sex. I feel bad for my boyfriend who puts in so much effort but i can hardly feel anything. I can tell it puts a negative tone to the sex because I am not having an orgasm and we both want it so bad. Just want to track here for support and to keep somewhat of a journal.