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Does this count as relapse?

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by ccml, Jan 25, 2019.

  1. ccml

    ccml Fapstronaut

    Hey guys. I started nofap about 20 days ago. I didn't have any trouble staying on no-PMO since I have very low libido to start with, and my boyfriend is on a trip abroad.
    But yesterday he called me and said he wanted to have sex with me over the phone. I wasn't desperate about having sex, but I thought that it would be good for our relationship. We turned lights off and imagined we were with each other. I rubbed myself against my bed cover using a condom, and tried not to reach O, but suddenly I felt I was about to cum and even I tried I couldn't stop it.
    It sounds weird, but I felt very connected with him, and I didn't experience it as anything close to masturbation or watching pornography. I feel that this doesn't mean I "relapsed", but do you think this could affect my reboot?

    (As background, I'm on this journey because of a quite severe PIED. I think hard mode helps best in these cases, but my bf has a very high libido and completely abstaining from O is a bit too harsh for him, I'm mostly no-PM and, since we don't meet so often, largely no-PMO).

    Thanks for your advice!
     
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  2. nazonokusa

    nazonokusa Fapstronaut

    Quote from "Your Brain On Porn" by Gary Wilson, a book all about internet porn's effects on the brain.

    I am recommending this book to pretty much everyone, it clears up all the questions that you didn't even know you had.

    From my experience, resetting the days counter every time I ejaculate on my own made me feel crazy.

    As long as I'm not wanking over pornographic imagery, the porn abstention is still going strong. That's why I have separate counters for porn & masturbation.
     
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  3. You need to decide for you what you tryomg to give up and how doing act has affected that.

    Reset or mot is up to you and your BF depending on the relationship depth
     
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