does being off of porn for at least a month make you search weird stuff?

Force yourself not to look up stuff like that and find different hobbies. Concentrate on those, learn to enjoy those and I think you'll come back to enjoying life.

 

I am a huge fan of conspiracy theories and also of serial killers, true crime, etc.
It's why I got my degree in Criminology. Also, I've been involved in law enforcement for a while.
But yes, I do notice when I'm not looking at porn... I tend to find something that will replace it. Sometimes those things are healthy, other times they are not. Like the poster before me, try not to focus on the negative. Positive enrichment is what this is all about. Changing your life for the better. Turning disease into Grace. I talk about it all the time on here. Learning that there is another way. Experiencing life the way it was intended and not selfishly through lust or objectifying things sexually.

 

Try buying a book and read a few pages a day (2-5 pages)
7 Habits of Highly Effective 6 is a very good book to start with.

 

I get hooked up on conspiracies as well. I've come to see it as a warning that I need to watch myself- conspiracy theory binges on nofap attempts has ALWAYS lead to relapse. I think that personally, I use that illuminati conspiracy celebrity crap as a gateway to porn substitutes and then porn itself. It also seems to be related to times that I'm approaching a mildly psychotic state, or at least detached from reality.

I don't think I have anything constructive to offer other than that I can relate
I've been making a big effort not to go back into that habit of browsing conspiracies. Getting off Reddit has helped me immensely. I have my beliefs about society and how messed up we are on account of corporate involvement and control, but I'm learning to just leave it at that and work towards changing my life so it just doesn't bother me anymore and I can go on living the way I want to.

 

This sounds familiar. For me it's not so much about the content, as the fact that it's sort of secret. Searching for hidden things seems to be kind of linked (in my mind at least) with sneaking a look at pictures of naked ladies - not really that surprising, I suppose...