Do you find going out mentally exhausting and depressing?

You’re not alone even if you do feel that way brother! Pmo almost got me to a point where I couldn’t be bothered with people of things I used to enjoy.

 

I can relate a lot. I went to a mall by myself and was so depressed, I just bought some clothes and left. It can be hard, definitely.

 

There's a very true saying that often the loneliest place to be is in the middle of a crowd and I believe that. I've been there, where I went out because I was feeling lonely at home and went somewhere with lots of people and just felt worse. I guess all you're seeing is people having fun and connecting with each other and we're on our own feeling invisible. I remember one time in particular being in a city around 30 mins from home and walking down the main street and realising that nobody in the world knew I was there. If I dropped dead of a heart attack and didn't have I.D on me it would be very difficult to find out who I was. I realised my life didn't really matter because I didn't matter to anyone.

I was in a 5 year relationship since then but it ended recently and I have gone back into what I call "a ghost life". Drifting around on the outskirts of life watching other people live while I just exist. It's not a nice feeling and I hope it doesn't last as long as it did last time.

Well done on achieving 160 days while feeling that loneliness, that's very commendable. It's the loneliness and boredom that mostly got me I think. The devil makes work for idle hands and all that....

 

Been there done that, the first thing you need to get straight is people aren't judging you as harshly as you think there are always going to be people that like you and people who don't . DONT DEFEAT YOURSELF BY ASSUMING REJECTION AS A FIRST REACTION I found that helped me a lot in dealing with women . Sometimes there chatty sometimes not its the way things are, and by not assuming rejection all the time you will open yourself up to more opportunities than with a limiting mindset.
hope this helps

 

Being able to connect to people without worries is a skill you need to build to overcome inner loneliness and porn addiction. We are addicted as we miss social skills and we have emotional trauma from childhood.

Also, there is another way of loneliness and that is that person is connecting to others looks very social and skilled but that person only plays to be somebody in order for other people to like him. This person is disconnected from himself and he is not true to his own perception. These people also struggle with deep inner loneliness as they are "actors" for their whole life and can not connect to themselves and don't understand why. Then they eventually become even suicide and you don't understand why as they can be singers, actors, famous people. But all their life they have pretended to be somebody else and you thought they are happy.

Good luck to you to find your real self and finding the courage to go out there and connect with real people. You will find the happiness you just need to believe it and work on yourself.