did i relapsed?

Man, after 500+ days you shouldn't worry about this shit like a 15 years old boy.

 

The answer if this is a full relapse or a "slip" would be if this triggers you to continue to seek more of this crap and/or you find yourself M or edging to the memory of the images you saw. There will be a chaser effect! Count on it!
And put a trigger warning on your post please.
Do you honestly believe you didn't watch porn? Just reading the movie description could be enough to set a bunch of guys off.
What has been going on the last couple of days? What were you coping with that had you scroll down and say "yeah, that looks like a good storyline that will have a great message"? Really? I used to read Playboy for the articles too...
If this is consistent with what you have been viewing all along then it's definately not a relapse. You haven't been sober.
You can have as long of a streak as you want to chalk up, if you are white knuckling the whole time or consuming material that is firing your dopamine up and then just not following through to orgasm, You're Not Sober.
I've spent the last 5 years "in recovery",
and I wasn't truly sober a single day of it.
Sure there were periods of time I abstained from this behavior or that behavior and claimed that I was sober. Having a sex addiction, and not admitting to myself that I had a sex addiction, I would fall back on old behaviors for a coping mechanism and I continued to have buried secrets that I hadn't shared with my wife. These fueled "relapse" after "relapse" until all that came out. Again, calling them a relapse would imply that I was sober to begin with so it's not really accurate. I do think I was learning about sobriety, trying it on, sampling, tightening the laces and walking around a bit. I just didn't lay down the card a say this is what I want moving forward.
This is tricky stuff and you can tell yourself all kinds of BS along the way to getting free from sexual addiction. It's more than just porn or masturbation. And it will escalate. It'll just happen ever so slowly so it won't raise any flags and risk being exposed. If your saying "wow, bummer for that guy, glad I'm not an addict" take heed. I told myself that for 40 years.
If you've had some good streaks abstaining from PMO, then kudos! Now raise the bar, why are you are asking if the movie you watched wasn't porn. Or better, start digging into why you were there in the first place.

Please know that I'm not saying any of this to judge or shame you. You are here and asking questions and that is awesome. You are getting awareness around something that has taken many of us here, decades to figure out, and wrecked unmessurable damage and pain on those we have loved. So agian, good job being here and please don't stop digging into this. It will save you and many others a lot of pain later on if you will get it dealt with now. It takes more time and more effort than you can believe. Sexual addiction is real and it is usually covering up a whole lot of hurt that needs to be processed.
We lie to ourselves first and best.
Find someone that is safe and you can be honest with, and shead some light on what's in there.

 

Well, everyone is here on their own conditions. I might not have been a P-film in category but it most certainly contained pornographic content. If it was me, I would have reset my counter since I would have crossed my own boundaries.

Best of wishes!

 

Simply NO . And you shouldn't think about you'r life like" oh shit I saw sex scene did I relapsed? or etc.." you make much more progress being exposed to it and continuing
you'r new life ..

 

Misunderstanding on this website about relapse is soooo stupid. Like very dumb . Here is the meaning :

relapse

return to a previous bad condition or a worse way of life after making an improvement

So simply relapse is going back to you'r old habits like starting wanking again and watching porn compulsively and again again.You don't see heroine addict seeing niddle and saying oh shit i relapsed..

 

After 500 days i obviously would not consider that a relapse.

 

Pose it to yourself.
But, If you want my opinion, if it was unvoluntary and unexpected, no
but, if you had a boner and you kept going, yes.

 

So you are saying that what you should be asexual ? 'If you had boner you relapsed' that's just stupid. So what he had boner he then relapsed ?? Its normal to see something sexual and have boner for god sake that makes us human.What is bad is thinking about seeing something sexy on media then wanting to go back to you'r old habits like porn binge . But thinking that you see something sexy in life plus not on purpose that 's a relapse ,its stupid .. Just discussing about this is dumb its not a relapse just chill and enjoy..

 

If you are recovering porn addict and you really want to know what relapse is watch this video :

 

no, you did not relapse, clean up your pants and soldier on

 

Its not stupid, I was talking about the intention, if he watched those scene wanting to relapse, then i'll say its a relapse. Not about your asexual stuff

 

If he watched like in purpose knowing that those scenes are gonna come then its bad but its far from relapse Buddha man.Watch the video below