Greetings to the NoFap Community. I have stumbled upon this website through a webpage explaining many reasons to stop Masturbating. My last PMO was on the 11/02/2015. I am fully aware of all of the benefits that come with abstaining from porn and masturbation. I have attempted to no fapping and no Porn in the past, in which i had only been successful for 30 days. This was around 2 years ago. During the 30 days, there was a massive improvement in energy, confidence, vitality, discipline.. etc. Then i jumped back on the porn bandwagon and fell victim to this terrible habit which continuously made me feel like a worthless piece of shit, and destroyed all of the traits i needed to be successful. Im sure you are all aware of this feeling. I have since been struggling to concentrate on fulfilling my aims and goals. Im studying computer programming at home and i have various goals i want to achieve in this area, along with my health and fitness goals. Simply put, watching porn and masturbating continuously destroys my energy being put into these activities, and instead of working on my studies and building up focus in the gym, I'm being a lazy piece of shit and half assed with everything. This has been the story of my life so far... I Become HIGHLY motivated and set goals(including to stop watching porn and masturbation).. I would then Go between 2 and 7 days with no masturbation, but still look and naked pictures/porn... which would fuel my mind with dirt, and then yes, you guessed it, id masturbate to porn, and feel worthless and not chase my goals as i should. Back to square one. I have been going around in circles. Since i started masturbation at the age of 14, the continuous use of porn has seamlessly destroyed me. I went to incredible lengths to search for more and more sick porn as time went on, as i could not even get off to the sight of a naked women on screen anymore. I would search for hours sometimes, finding the right video.. not only that, but to find the right scene in a video to orgasm to. It gets worse, i went through stages where using my own hand was not satisfying. I had to interact with objects to get myself off, thats right!, american pie style!. Desensitisation occurred. I have also recently invested in a Medical Penis device to straighten out my penis curve which has developed from vigorously beating off. I have suffered with weak erections at times, I am currently 21 years old. I am no stranger to attempting to abstain from this life destroying habit, and i know how hard it is to stop. All attempts in the past have gone terribly wrong. I believe the use and interaction with a fantastic forum like such, will help me finally stay positive, committed and move forward. I registered yesterday and i like to say i really like the counter implementation. This will help me track progress and i just think it looks great. I have read up on a some threads to find many people in the same boat. Some of the success stories are highly motivating. This brings me onto my next point, in which i hope will help some of you guys. Understand that motivation is like a drug. Its great when your highly motivated, you feel like your on cloud 9, you make many commitments and goals. But oh wait, what happens when the motivation disappears ?? You come crashing down and may end up falling victim to this terrible habit. BOOM, square one. Motivation is nothing without discipline. I have recently learned that it is discipline that we should all be committed to. Continuously carrying out habits on a daily basis which will help us achieve our goals. I recommend all of you look into having Cold Showers, these will help tremendously. In recent months, i have been lazy with attempts to stop porn and masturbation, but now I'm damn right fed up. I want to succeed in my goals and work towards them instead of sitting in front of my laptop/iphone for hours, rubbing objects on me to get myself off for only 5 seconds of orgasm. I am HeisenbergBlue, and here, my road to AlphaMale starts, Suffer the pain of discipline, or suffer the pain of regret.