Day 4 of 100, pmo&hand abstinence lol

Today I cleaned my bedroom. It was a mess now it's looking a lot better. Still not completely finished with that project so I will update tomorrow on how the room is going.

Feeling wise, I feel good about myself that I have taken up this challenge. I try not to think about it that much because it's a high mountain to climb. But I know I can do it. I know the necessary parameters needed to accomplish this feat.

1. Not entertaining lustful thoughts
2. Not browsing youtube, Instagram, social medias when bored
3. A strong will power - Which I must admit i am weak willed when depressed, I turn into a sad hedonist.

This reminds me of the time I decided to run a half marathon. With only a year of preparation I was able to run each mile of that Half Marathon with a pace faster than a 10 minute mile. The 13th Mile I actually ran a 7 minute mile. And I was an amateur runner with no experience other than that year's worth of preparation.



I actually battle with another pattern of negative habitual behavior. And that is anhedonia. Where I find everything boring and uninteresting. There are TV shows I like to watch but with anhedonia is like I can't afford to sit there and pay attention.

I must confess, I have no hobbies. I play chess on my phone. And have lots of puzzles I like to try and solve. But in reality what I do is stare in consternation and end up disgusted with myself for my incapability to solve them. I spend a lot of time fretting over time. Wishing time to pass faster.

Sooooooo, today is Sunday and Day Four. Onto day Forty I say!


I'm open to new hobbies if any one can describe their fascinating pastime.