Day 27 semen retention - depressive flatline?

Okay so im on day 27 semen retention (in he title above) and hardly watched porn at all the past 2.5 years. I have however gone on grindr this summer a fair amount, which is similar to porn.

Ive gone almost 40 days without porn, and these past few weeks only gone on grindr like twice for short amounts of times.

For some reason after retaining and having this streak, i feel depressed. Dont get me wrong i felt amazing on this streak too, im hoping its a flatline, although im open to it being something else.

It could be the fact that im anxious about my 3rd year at uni, since im sick of my course now. Or it could be the fact im dating a girl whos only on holiday in my country for a short time, and i really like her, but shes moving back to japan. Idk

Any tips on depression please let me know, also if you think this is a flatline, and if anyone has had a similar mood when this far in to semen retention/nofap. Hope it doesnt last too long!