Day 2 of NoFap.

Discussion in 'Women in Reboot' started by Bee_11, Dec 8, 2018 at 4:12 AM.

  1. Bee_11

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    I started this journey of NoFap two days ago. I had been on porn for a month almost. Initially it used to be soft porn, the kind they share as gif on tumblr and then it escalated to the 5 minutes videos. I felt trapped somehow. Because it was not what I wanted. I needed something to divert myself from the stress. I had been suppressing my real feelings lately. I thought that would work just fine with me. I didn't realize that it could be so addicting. But then, I was never into it totally. There was always something that asked me to back off. I am an artist. I have a super active imagination. That made me suffer more. I realized that even when I was in holy places, I wasn't able to remove those horrifying pornographic images from my mind. Those images were messing with my head. I used to look at a person and I tend to imagine them naked. It was gross. Disgusting on my part. I realized it and now, I am on my path to redemption. It has been only a day but I still feel a lot better. I don't want to go back to it ever. It marred my view of life. My view of everything. It was never what I wanted but it was like a hunger I couldn't suppress. I was being puppeteered by my desires. But I say, no more. I would no more let it mess with my head. PMO is an unhealthy habit to keep. Let's get rid of it, together and forever.
     
  2. GSW9

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    I'm glad you're already feeling better & have started your own journal.. PMO definitely hinders one's creativity so you being an artist, it will be beneficial if you abstain from it..

    Cheers & good luck on your journey :)
     
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  3. GSW9

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    @Bee_11 btw wanted to ask you, is the sketch in your avatar made by you? To be honest, its wonderful :)
     
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  4. Newgirl

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    I believe you have a good moral foundation which will help you rid yourself of this crap. Focus on your talents and abilities so you can replace the bad habit with good ones. Fostering happy thoughts helps us to stay strong against PMO. :)
     
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  5. GhostWriter

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    Welcome young lady. I am glad to see you're here and that you have identified this as a negative impact in your life.

    First, your journal is a great first decision. This will allow you to track your progress as well as others to help make recommendations to you.

    Take it one day at a time. That's the real key here. Say "just for today", I'm going to remain clean from PMO. Then tomorrow, you wake up and say "just for today". If you want me to expand on that, I will. I have said it ad naueam here, so if you look at some of my posts, you'll find it. Otherwise, just ask, and I will expand on it.

    To better understand your addictive behavior, go get Dr. Patrick Carnes book "Out of the Shadows". Dr. Carnes is the world's foremost subject matter expert on sexual/pornography addiction. He founded what is the modern treatment protocol for all reputable sexual/pornography addiction treatment centers in the world.

    If you have questions/concerns, please reach out. If it is help you seek, all you need to do is ask and it will be given you.

    PS ~ your youth works so heavily in your favor. Capitalize on it!
     
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  6. Bee_11

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    Nope. It is just a picture I downloaded. I am a writer, a poet. Sometimes I draw too but that's not something I am real proud of tbh. I suck at drawing.
     
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  7. Bee_11

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    Thank you so much. This is really helpful. I address this as an addiction.
     
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  8. Bee_11

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    Thank you so much. I read your posts and I got real inspired. You helped me tbh. I am looking forward to read more of your experience. :)
     
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  9. Livispacerocket88

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    The fact your already on this journey shows that you already have the courage to beat this thing. And get to the heart of the matter, I hope you find the answers that your looking for.
     
  10. Newgirl

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    Thank you for your kind words :)
     

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