I started this journey of NoFap two days ago. I had been on porn for a month almost. Initially it used to be soft porn, the kind they share as gif on tumblr and then it escalated to the 5 minutes videos. I felt trapped somehow. Because it was not what I wanted. I needed something to divert myself from the stress. I had been suppressing my real feelings lately. I thought that would work just fine with me. I didn't realize that it could be so addicting. But then, I was never into it totally. There was always something that asked me to back off. I am an artist. I have a super active imagination. That made me suffer more. I realized that even when I was in holy places, I wasn't able to remove those horrifying pornographic images from my mind. Those images were messing with my head. I used to look at a person and I tend to imagine them naked. It was gross. Disgusting on my part. I realized it and now, I am on my path to redemption. It has been only a day but I still feel a lot better. I don't want to go back to it ever. It marred my view of life. My view of everything. It was never what I wanted but it was like a hunger I couldn't suppress. I was being puppeteered by my desires. But I say, no more. I would no more let it mess with my head. PMO is an unhealthy habit to keep. Let's get rid of it, together and forever.