Day 100+... first sexual experience.

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by fellowBrother, Aug 15, 2019.

  1. fellowBrother

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    Today I could not shake the horniness at all and ended up meeting up with a girl off tinder and getting head. I have no idea where I even stand now in regards to nofap because I obviously wasnt in a relationship with the girl and didn't think she was that attractive. Today was like day 115 or so? The crazy thing is before I would have never done anything like this because I would have just fapped in my place and went to sleep. Now i'm getting out and meeting with girls but not always in the best circumstances. I've asked out 2 or 3 girls in person too, which is way out of what I usually ever do. I will say that my social anxiety has been on and off and better than it was before I stopped. What do you guys think?
     
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  2. I battled this too. It wasn’t until day 150 ish that I found a real girlfriend and started having real meaningful sex that my brain stared to heal and level off. At first, even sex with a partner made me feel like shit but now I think I’m healing.
     
  3. fellowBrother

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    Would you consider this a relapse? Didnt watch porn or masturbate.
     
  4. No I wouldn’t. However, it is crucial at this time in your recovery to make smart decisions, this not being one unfortunately. There is very little difference between the girl you met online and the girls you fap to online. They are there for one thing and one thing only. It becomes a good thing to have a sexual connection with someone when it’s someone you actually care for. Trust me, keep going out of your comfort zone and finding new awesome ways to experience life that don’t involve pmo and someone really worth your time will blindside you. Keep me posted on your progress friend.
    Also, for me, as good as the counter is and as much as it helps and as important as it is not to it can cause a whole manner of negative emotions and feelings and at one point actually sent me spiraling out of control. Instead of focusing on the counter, focus on you. Stop for a minute and think how far you have come.. how nothing could ever send you back to the person you were. Think of how just a year ago you would have patted yourself on the back like you were a king for catching head off a random girl that in reality, would do it for anybody and probably does. Walk with your head up high and really deliberately experience the progress. One more thing. Tinder is porn. Bumble is porn. Clover is porn. Facebook is poison, even YouTube is very toxic. Rid yourself of them all my friend. I promise this will be the biggest step you take. Also drink half your body weight in ounces of water and take magnesium. Ok rant over
     
  5. porsche4life

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    This is not a relapse because when you tap to porn it's just pixels and nothing more. Porn addiction is basically a pixel addiction if you can put it that way.
     
  6. RonLeong

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    congrat bro, said god gave us men a penis is for fuckin not jerking to a screen.
     
  7. And there I was thinking my penis was for making love not just “fuckin”
     
  8. To me this sounds like you used her mouth as a masturbation device. Did you fantasize while it happened too?
    Because then it is probably not so far away from PMO...
     
  9. Depends on what your goals are I suppose. I wouldn't count this as a relapse. PMO addiction is fapping to pixels on a screen whilewiring your brain to think of this as reproduction, where as you met with a real life woman and had a real physical interaction.

    If your goal for NoFap was to cure ED - Were you hard for this real interaction? If so then good. If not then keep going.
    If your goal was to stop fapping to porn on a screen - then good job because this woman was real and I'm sure her mouth was real.
    If your goal was to have no sexual interactions, even with real life women, then it's a reset/relapse. But honestly, who want's to keep going with NoFap and not eventually have real physical interactions with women.

    So, in my opinion of course, it depends what your goals were.
     
  10. fellowBrother

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    Nah. Just watched her suck it. I previously had PIED so this by itself is great tbh.
     
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