Day 1- New Path

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by LionKingMan, Nov 10, 2018.

  1. LionKingMan

    LionKingMan Fapstronaut

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    Fapstronauts-

    I am a 36 year old man and have finally decided to own up to my porn addiction and revolving door of casual encounters. I seek community, understanding and accountability as I step out of shame and shadows- and into authenticity. I started my timer yesterday at 3pm CST, opened up to my partner of two years and Mom, Dad and sister about this on and off struggle of 18 years (half my life). My heart and mind are truly exhausted of hitting rock bottom, learning lessons the hard way over and over again, of hiding and holding onto shame, and weary of making excuses for my behavior. I have a therapist lined up and will start treatment next Wednesday. I look forward to the authenticity I can bring to this community and receive from others.

    Much Love!
     
  2. I'vebeenlost

    I'vebeenlost Fapstronaut

    Welcome! This is truly a one of a kind community. I don't think I would have made it 2 weeks without the support of all these amazing members. Its awesome that you have taken the huge step of opening up your family and talking to a therapist. The shame is exhausting, but if there is one thing I've learned from this forum, its that healing and freedom is possible. Stay strong, never stop fighting.
     
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  3. LionKingMan

    LionKingMan Fapstronaut

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    Thank you so much for your words of wisdom and support! I'm looking forward to getting to 14 days, just like you.
     
  4. jangles

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    Welcome @LionKingMan. That was very brave of you to open up to your family and find this community. Stay strong!
     
  5. LionKingMan

    LionKingMan Fapstronaut

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    Thank you! Woke up with less brain fog and more energy after only three days. Starting therapy on Wednesday to start peeling back all of these layers. Is it correct that you're in the NoFap Academy?
     
  6. jangles

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    I purchased it awhile ago, and recorded the notes, so I'm going through it again. But I'm not on the calls since I'm not actively enrolled at the moment.
     
  7. LionKingMan

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    Great! Was it worth the investment? 360 dollars for a year is a lot of money at the moment for me.
     
  8. Baba17

    Baba17 Fapstronaut

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    I’m back to day 1 myself after about 4 weeks no porn. Longest I’ve ever gone.
     
  9. LionKingMan

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    How are you feeling about it? Let me know know if you wanna talk.
     
  10. jangles

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    I'm not sure. I purchased, and then I didn't follow through (can't remember why...), but I'm going through it now, and I think it's helping. I'm also doing Mark's Patreon which is helping. I know someone on the forum who committed to it, and does the weekly calls, and did the 90 days hard mode, and is now PMO free.

    I would have a plan like if you're relapsing still by the end of the month based on all your research, you do the course. If by the end of the course, you're still relapsing, you commit to Mark's Patreon (or whichever order you want to go in ). If after 3 month's you're still relapsing, you do Mark's intro counseling. If after 2 months from talking with him... and so on and so forth until you conquer it.

    I actually have a plan now. I want to beat this. My emotional and relational wellbeing I think is worth the financial costs.
     
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