hi yáll.. i just wanted to let you know that im a sufferer of narcistic mother who has controlled me for over 25 years and have made me feel so helpless that my only way of getting out of that stress was this porn and masturbation...but it has effected me so badly like my confidence and hardworking abilities. and i want all that back. so it will be an honor to know if someone here suffers from the same thing. because narcs can really drive you crazy...above all i belong to a strict household and i really cant leave other than getting married for which i think im not ready yet. so what do you guys suggest i should do?