Dang it... Ok, I'm doing this

I'm not happy about it. Love porn, especially games and such. I am friends with camgirls, strippers, and burlesque dancers. But I have not handled digital porn well. And my improper use is affecting my sex life. I have a poly gf, lovers, sex clubs nearby, 90% of my friends are female (just grown up around women and click better with them, non sexually) and open minded... And I'm having to take pills that can harm my health to satisfy people and perform. I'm not even getting that much physical satisfaction from the sex anymore, finding myself avoiding it because I'm afraid I won't be able to perform and they'll be miffed when I use other things. And using other things is great, but its just emotional fulfillment, not physical. My body works fine, it stays hard for hours and feels sensations with porn or when I'm in altered states where my brain isn't getting in my way, but not when I want it to be working... Even porn is just not that enjoyable anymore, not really, just something that feels like 'has to happen'. Tried quitting on my own a few times, no luck.. Let's see if this helps. At least until I start functioning properly again and then maybe learn to use it responsibly.