Cross dresser? I feel like crap..

im not gonna do escorts again. Sure you can say i ought to make my mind up. But thats the whole reason im here. When ts offer to meet me i feel hugely tempted, but wanna stop all the same.

 

I have to admit a big trigger is Facebook, as i have a lot of random Ts friends on there that i chat to, i just can't stop myself at the moment. I have my friends private so no one else will see.

I have at times then deleted them from my list and just used FB responsibly. But after a couple weeks of nofap i end up doing it all over again, because the horny feeling just get overwhelming.

Last year i was on 3 months NoFap or anything. I then made friends with a Thai ladyboy on Fb and it all went down hill from there.

 

Well im getting very close to giving in and finding a Ts gf. But i just feel like i wiah i was just into women, so keep resiating.

 

I've basically got three options:

- Somehow overcome my deep desire and fetish for trans women and just go for a woman.

- continue having sex with them secretly

- stop being harsh on myself about it, stop worrying, be open and possibly find a trans gf. Somehow i can't allow myself to do this

 

it's a possibility, but there's also the worry of people finding out, which may just be my imagination but still. Where do you stand in this, would you be open to a relationship with a trans?

 

yes it's something like that..

 

i do talk with women as well and have had some interested in me, albeit from abroad.

Although the thing is i often feel more attraction trans. Like if i see a hot woman and a hot trans woman, usually I'll feel 10x more aroused by the trans.

So what i'm getting at is sometimes i worry that even if i find a woman, my desire for ts will still be there, as it's that intense.

If i don't get over this, i may have to just give up and find a ts partner. If anyone questions ill just have to say this is what i like and i can't help it. Will see how the year goes.

 

it can definately change your internal fantasies because those are partially influenced by what experiences you have - including PMO - this site is very helpful:

https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/ybo...d-the-brain/are-sexual-tastes-immutable-2012/