Completely different person

I have experienced this kind of flip flop for years. and all I can say is that you know when you flip over. you know when it happens, but it feels so "good" in the moment to do what your doing that your fight against it seems futile. you need to hate PMO you need to hate the idea of getting that high. I for years loved that high and that is why I could not fight against the urges once my brain got in the "zone". stay strong man, never give up.

 

This is true. Everyone has a second personality. This can actually be used to your advantage when you acknowledge the face that it is a different person that is responsible for you're relapse or bad behaviour.

Lets try to explain this. You have your true self, this is who you truly are, deep down, your dreams, values, aspirations and expressions. And then you have you're evil twin, egoic, selfish, materialistic, always seeking pleasure and approval. Now, most people's lives are dominated by their evil twin. The twin is lazy, they want to masturbate, or drink or do drugs or whatever it may be. They do not care about others and they especially do not care at all about the "good" twin.

Now, what you must realize is the only way to win the battle is to kill the evil twin. Kill your ego by starving it to death. Do not give in to temptation, say no to the ego's requests for pleasure and approval. Let go of you're attachment to it. Stop caring what other's think of you, live your live true to your values. Starve your ego to death, do not feed it porn or obsessive thoughts about not watching porn.

Oh wait hold on, am I saying to stop thinking about not watching porn? Stop counting the days since you last "fapped"? Yes, because the ego cannot tell the difference between thinking about fapping, and thinking about not fapping. So in other words, this website may be helping some of you, however in a lot of cases it may be doing you more harm then good.

Peace

 

The true self is not ego, you cannot have two egos existing in yourself, unless you have a multiple personality disorder, which creates chaos. The true self is who you are without the ego. Keeping a counter, tracking the days will not help, it is acknowledging the egos existence and thus feeding the ego.

 

Im not so sure but I think I heard something back in school that people generally fluxuate between a manic state of mind and a depressive state of mind and that most people go up and down between, while not going to each extreme. The one who go to the extremes are the manic-depressive guys. I'm not sure if this fits in your theory about two completly different egos but it would certainly explain that you feel different at different times. one time more manic, one time more depressive, and I think PMO makes you more prone to depression and a kind of sedentary feeling.
heres a graphic: https://www.google.at/search?q=bipo...atry-psychology%2Fbipolar-disorder%2F;700;632

I also read on another wikipedia site that depression is agression you have against yourself.

So, maybe this explains a bit your different emotions or "egos" at different times.

 

well you could watch a documentary on manic-depressive persons or bipolar disorder and then compare if you are loony

 

We've All felt this brother. You are NOT alone here.

This reddit post really hit me, check it out: http://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/comments/23t4m4/how_to_make_nofap_really_really_easy_100_day/