This is my second day abstaining. I have relapsed so many times in the past until I have just lost count of it.Every time I relapsed I got mad and upset at myself that I always promised my self this is the last time! never again!. But there never was a last time! and I would go back through the same cycle. I am now 19 years and I don't want this addiction to continue when I turn 20.I made a new year resolution for 2014 that I will break free from this addiction and I actually believed it but it just took two weeks for me to relapse and damn it I couldn't believe it again in 2014!!! I am so tired of this addiction I can just give up almost anything I own just to be free but I know the addiction just doesn't go away in one day. And now here I am again on my second day hoping this time round it will be the last time!!!