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Coming COMPLETELY clean!

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by HayMaker, Dec 22, 2013.

  1. HayMaker

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    DAY 14
    It's been a great. So far,two weeks completed. I had to deal with some urges especially late at night. I'm training myself that it's normal for me to be horny,just find something else to do.My results from college came in,wasn't as good as I planned.I may have to retake some courses. During the semester, I divided my time between my studies and what my life-learning. I'm more interested in business than in school. My parents know this so well that they are scared I'll drop-out.I've always talked about how I want to run various companies and presently I run one of my parents IT companies,however,they try to have a strong hold on me which is becoming less possible. I don't want to reach the conclusion that I'm not school material but sometimes it's hard to continue when your marks don't reflect your effort and your interest is almost dead!
    I've made a resolve to keep going but at the same time,keep my company up and running.I really love what I do and I want to spend my life growing my businesses. :)
     
  2. HayMaker

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    It seems to be a bit harder than before to take on nofap challenge so I've decided to keep track of my slips. I do not desire to relapse but should it happen, I want to be able to know how and why so that I can counter it.

    13th November 2015
    The previous day had only a busy morning for me so I had the rest of the day to myself. I slept although I wasn't tired and had lucid dreams. I used my computer until very late just browsing aimlessly Facebook girls and Tumblr which I knew I shouldn't have done. Around midnight, I had a full blown relapse using the weird section of YouTube.

    What I should have done:
    Take a walk and clear my mind to prepare for the coming day as I've always loved doing.
    Go for a workout session.
    ALWAYS REMIND MYSELF THAT I'M TAKING THE RESPONSIBILITY OF QUITTING PORN BECAUSE
    a)I want a far more fulfilling life sexually as an alpha male
    b)The time spent on porn and masturbation and it's after effects can be used in building my companies and corporations.
    c)I want to become the best version of myself every day.
     
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    Making it to day 15 after many tries
     
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    DAY 15; So happy I could make it this far. I struggled with thoughts of relapsing today but I made it. Thank God. So happy
     
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    Day 16: Got back to work and school. Got a bit of flu but refusing to stay bored in my room. Focusing on my work and the life I want to create :)
     
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    Day 24: I marked 21 days last Sunday. Loads of memories flooded my mind about the 1st time I had done NoFap, two years ago. I was going to run a 10 km race and I decided no pron and masturbation for the next 21 days and focused my energy on training. I ran my race and came in 2nd place, it was an endurance race and I loved it. Made new friends and even met this girl. That night, I relapsed! It was my 1st encountered with relapsing and I pondered over what had led to it. Long story short, I began focusing on building a new life.
     
  7. HayMaker

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    Day 26: Disciplining myself and staying focused on a school project. I've got my whole semester mapped out with tests and assignment. Sticking to it :)
     
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    Day 45 of 90: Progress report
    Lost count of the days about a week ago but this is how my life has turned so far:

    Pros
    -I started my 1st corporation which I expect to take public in the near future in addition to my day jobs: I have 2 jobs currently
    -I opened my 1st investment account and used money I could have spent on internet subscription to fund my investment portfolio.
    -I have a hunger to always read books, I've read 3 of Robert Greene's and reading a fourth book now.
    -I've mapped out my semester work and I'm staying afloat with all my courses.
    -Planning my trip to the states and Liberia.
    -Grown a full beard, a very different look to my formerly boyish face.
    -Took a girl I like a lot out
    -Working on several productive projects that I don't even have time for porn.
    -I'm noticing lots of things, strangle the little things like the distinct smell of a perfume and a shades of colours
    -Women became beautiful in my eyes once again.

    Cons
    -I've spent quite a bit of time over sleeping and sometimes having feelings of general tiredness. I think this is my body trying to adjust to it's new environment.
    -I've had weird dreams of having sex with my female friends but without nocturnal emissions. On one such occasion, when I woke up I felt like I was about to ejaculate and simply calmed myself.
    - Sometimes, serious sex cravings during the day and lapses of lack of focuses.

    So there it is, making changes everyday to paint a much better future.
     
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    DAY 48 of 90: A lot of edging during the night,looking for ways to calm myself down
     
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    Day 53 of 90:It's been intense for the past 3 days. I can't seem to focus on much. Been edging through my sleeps and fantasizing a lot.BUT I KNOW IT WILL PASS.

    On the other hand, I've got a lot of school work to cover and tests in this week and the next. I met this girl and I'm starting to seriously fall for her. I think its my former habit just looking for an outlet. We have a date next week. I am a virgin, never had a girlfriend, never had a kiss.............
     
    Last edited: Sep 24, 2015
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    Day 56 of 90: So yesterday was quite a day, intense pressure from work and school. Got back to my room at 10pm, did laundry, clean up, made dinner and then it began. I'd been so horny during the day it wasn't funny. As I laid in my bed, almost impossible to sleep til 1 pm, constantly reminding myself why I've chosen the path of NoFap.
    Fast forward to today, went to a church service, came back early enough to catch up on sleep then it happened. I had a WET DREAM. Not to go into too much detail but ,It was so intense I felt every bit of it.

    Progress report
    -staying away from my room unless I need to work out or sleep.
    -focusing on my business
    -got a date for thursday and a friend's birthday party.
    -developing a better version of myself constantly.
     
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    Day 58 of 90:
    Just bought and tasted my first pack of creatine. It's workout session. :)
     
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    Day 64: I haven't been online for a while. So this girl and I went on a date. It went well and I'll leave it at that.
     
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    Day 66 of 90: Been a bit lazy for 3 days now although I've got loads of work to do. The irony?
    For the past few days, I've had this thought that the masturbation part is under control. The real battle seems to be constant fantasizing. When my date and I went out a few days ago, we ended up kissing. The sensation of it kept me from from relapsing or even wanting to ogle at other girls.

    Future plans: I've got meeting with bankers and some CEO so I want to go emotionally, physically and mentally prepared. I'm not making this girl a priority although I do like her. I prefer to be grounded as a man.
     
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    Day 67 of 90: Went to the museum yesterday on my own. It was my version of taking myself on a date. Later, my friends and I had a get together. It was awesome. Focusing on my work now. Loads of studies to cover as quick as possible.

    Taking new steps. I've created a logging book for my incomes and expenses.
     
    Last edited: Sep 10, 2015
  16. MrsGarcia7

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    Keep it up, HayMaker! You're almost there!
     
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    Thanks. That means a lot to me :)
     
  18. HayMaker

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    Day 72 of 90 days: Woke up early today with a straight steel rod today, wasn't morning wood, it felt more like a heavy metal.
    I went to work this morning and as I'm helping this client out I get a boner,she's quite cute and she was dressed to kill. That subsides and I go talk with a female coworker and I start to get another boner. To make it worse, she starts touching me slightly and that doesn't help the situation.

    Anyways, I'm seeing this girl and somehow I realize that being with her makes it harder for me to fantasize. I just enjoy her company so much. It feels amazing.

    New Development: When I look at girls today, I can't help but prefer the natural way a girl looks without all the over-enhanced features to try and keep up with the trends of a crazy fashion parade.
     
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    Day 76 of 90 days: Worked out. Took a cold shower this morning. New milestone. I want to get some creatine, ran out of the one i had.
    Going to a formal party tonight. #classic
     
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  20. HayMaker

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    Day 81 of 90: I know that initially I started nofap for myself but along the way, I met this girl. I'm indifferent towards her although I really like her. I keep this composure to make sure that she reciprocates any attraction I have for her. Kissing and holding hands is our thing. Whenever I feel nofap becomes harder, she suddenly becomes my focus, I'm kind of doing it for her. She motivates me in a way she doesn't know, let's see how far this goes :)
     
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