ClassyKing's Journal - Rebooting to avoid sex headaches

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  1. ClassyKing

    ClassyKing Fapstronaut

    This is my first time doing this so I am going to document my progress. I'm going to be open and up front about everything I do during this challenge. The reason I started using NoFap is because recently, I've started to get nasty headaches from my masturbation. I would normally PMO 3 to 4 times on a daily basis. I'm not sure why I get sex headaches. For most people that wouldn't be a big deal, but I would also get creative with toys and other types of stimulation to the point where it would be boring sometimes to use my own hand. Lately though this type of workout would give me a bad headache right at the point of orgasm. So I would PMO the normal way, but it takes longer to PMO in order to avoid the headaches and still get the pleasure.

    So I've decided that my body is probably trying to tell me I need to change my lifestyle, take a break from masturbation, and quit using porn. My goal is to not PMO for 2 weeks to start, then try and go longer if I can.

    Some things you should know before reading my journal

    - I am a bisexual man who is currently dating another man. I intend to talk about my gender and my sexuality openly. If that bothers some of you than don't read my journal.
    - I may or may not trigger some of you with my content. I won't lie, I do touch myself from time to time and I am not shy about it. If the content is too much for you to handle, make sure you exit and hit that panic button
    - I like having conversations, so anyone is open to reply to my journal entries, and engage with me if they like.

    Wish me luck!
     
  2. ClassyKing

    ClassyKing Fapstronaut

    So for my first entry, I'm starting off on day 3. Last couple of days were spent researching the website and deciding to do this challenge. I felt really bad about it considering my boyfriend and I are VERY active in our sex life. We live pretty far away from each other and work a lot, so we spend a lot of our time texting and skyping, (skyping 80 percent of the time leading to the both of us watching each other jerk off :p). Telling him was hard, but he was immediately supportive. He wants me to get better and that helps me so much to know he's got my back.

    So far I haven't really felt the urge to PMO, but more like I wanna MO like no tomorrow XD. Been really trying my best, but I can't help when I feel urge to grope myself when I'm horny. I would pull away though as soon as I start to feel like i'm getting hard. Whenever I would have the urge, I would come here and look at the forums and engage with people. Talking through there struggles helps me through my own a little bit, even if my problems feel insignificant compared to some of the people here. I just started though so I'll have to wait and see how I feel down the road.
     
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  3. lifetimehighline31

    lifetimehighline31 Fapstronaut

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  4. ClassyKing

    ClassyKing Fapstronaut

    Made it to Day 4

    So far so good. I slept in, had coffee and spent some time on here looking through posts. Made a friend on here, looking forward to talking with him, and anyone else. I always enjoy getting to know people. I woke up with a pretty hard morning wood that took a few minutes to go down. I actually had a short dream where I was browsing through my old porn sites. I didn't feel aroused at all by it, but I guess I'm starting to miss the act of going through my porn sites like social media, seeing who posted something new.

    This is gonna sound strange to some people, but most of my porn consisted of hand drawn art and comics. I would frequent a few sites that posted them just to see if the next page of a comic I am following was posted, or see if an artist I like uploaded a new work. Mostly that art consisted of half buff men, and half furry art. (never saw myself as a furry, but would appreciate the art some people do and was attracted to it.) Knowing what I know now I probably liked that stuff because normal porn wasn't turning me on like it use to. I would prefer the hand drawn stuff over the porn of real men and women.

    Its kinda dawning on me that I've been addicted to porn for so long, I never noticed the damage it must have been doing to me. I use to think I was just overcompensating for a lack of love life, but I've been relying on the porn for almost 15 years.

    Last thing I'll mention, I don't know if this is related, but I did something weird...

    I'll preface by saying I like to pee in out of the norm places. Usually i would take a piss behind a bush, a trash can, or even in a bottle or cup while driving. Last night I had taken a shower, and was lying down on my bed when I felt the need to urinate. I didn't want to get up, but I still had my towel on. I got the craziest idea to wrap the towel in a ball, and piss into it like a diaper. Not gonna lie, it felt good and didn't leave a mess, but I wonder if its my body trying to cope with not masturbating like I'm use to. If anyone has thoughts let me know, I might make a post about this under Sexual Behavior.
     
  5. ClassyKing

    ClassyKing Fapstronaut

    Day 5

    Late entry today. I had a very busy day. I started off waking up at 4:30 in the morning. It was hot and my allergies were kicking me in the face. If anyone reading this lives in the east coast, they knows what I'm talking about. The humidity is so bad here. Right now its 79 degrees at night, and the humidity is so thick you can cut it with a knife. I took a couple allergy pills and tried going back to sleep. By then my morning wood kicked in, and there was no way to fall asleep until it went down.

    Side note; I noticed the type of underwear I was wearing was really bothering me. I toss and turn a lot in my sleep, and short cut shorts are so loose my balls fall through the side of the legs. I needed more support so I slipped on a jockstrap. Was way better, but eventually I had to switch back because a boner doesn't leave a lot of room in a jockstrap.

    After that I kept myself busy with chores and phone calls. Got called in early to work and spent the rest of the day there until now. Hardly felt any urges today. Already proud that I made it to 5 days. I think any other time I tried avoiding PMO I made it to 3 days. Now since I stopped using porn I'm already showing a lot more self-discipline.
     
  6. lifetimehighline31

    lifetimehighline31 Fapstronaut

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    You did 6 days, so what's 6 more?
     
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  7. ClassyKing

    ClassyKing Fapstronaut

    I know right!? 6 more days is nothing.
     
  8. ClassyKing

    ClassyKing Fapstronaut

    Day 6

    Late journal entry again. I got called into my part-time job and spent all day there. Just got home a couple hours ago, and all the blood is running to the soles of my feet after standing for 9 hours. I don't think i can get a hard-on at this point.

    Earlier I woke up around 4:30 again from all the humidity. Even under all the sweat I'm still not really thinking about porn. The temptation is there to relieve myself to help me sleep, but I'm holding on. I'll just get a wet dream eventually and then i'll be fine.

    In other news I made a new friend and accountability partner today in Sam new man. Me and him have a lot in common, and like each other enough to talk on a regular basis.

    Nothing much to say about my work. My part-time job is retail, but its video games so its something I enjoy at least. It keeps me busy enough where my urges don't surface. Speaking of urges, I did feel them while I was driving. Has anyone ever driven a car and felt the vibrations on your balls to the point it was stimulating? I'll bring that up in another thread, but comment here if you'd like.
     
  9. ClassyKing

    ClassyKing Fapstronaut

    Day 7

    Today has been a hard time. Been going threw a pretty big withdrawal. Woke up with morning wood as usual, but I slept naked this time because I didn't want the heat to bother me. Well that was a mistake because it gave me easy access for me to start stroking, and since then I've been antsy all day. I'll spend the day trying to distract myself, but the urges don't completely go away. The moment I stop doing anything my urges pick back up. Even now while i'm typing my feet and legs are bouncing because I'm trying hard not to touch myself. My hands are shaking and I'm having a hard time focusing on tasks.

    Tried to look at the forums and talk to people, but that didn't help much. My friends and support group are busy today, so I can't talk to anyone. Spent some time doing laundry and cooking, that got my mind off of the urges a little. Hopefully going to work at my second job will distract me from this, but at this point its becoming unbearable.

    I thought day 6 went well so much, day 7 is just a complete 180 shift. I don't wanna relapse after only 7 days, so I'll keep going.
     
  10. Jason_Tesla_19

    Jason_Tesla_19 Fapstronaut

    Day 7 is often the hardest, as there is usually a testosterone spike at around 7 days of abstinence. After that, testosterone levels stay relatively stable, but I think number of androgen receptors slowly increases, so you become more sensitive to the testosterone in your system. Stay strong!
     
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  11. ClassyKing

    ClassyKing Fapstronaut

    Thanks man. That helps clear things up. I'll do my best.
     
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  12. ClassyKing

    ClassyKing Fapstronaut

    Day 8,

    Feeling much better than I was yesterday. After my last entry I went to work. The car ride up was pretty much the same, head flushed and dizzy with shakiness, but once I got to work my urges calmed down. When I got home I went to bed and felt good.

    Slept in and woke up without any bad urges. I learned from my mistake last time, and kept my underwear on. I had a weird dream where I was hugging a girl I once knew, and all of a sudden I was getting jerked off with her thighs. I think I woke up from the pleasure of it, but don't know if it was a dry orgasm or not. Had some morning wood later that morning, but I just used that as a reason to get out of bed and start my day.

    Had the best Skype call with my boyfriend. He was teasing me about having sex with me the next time we get together, and in the moment I admitted that I loved him, but then he immediately said it back XD. That was the first time we ever said that to each other in the 7 months we have been dating. After that we couldn't stop saying it to each other. It made me happy, and a little horny. I was good though, didn't masturbate just got a little hard from all the dopamine.

    Going to work soon, gonna buy a new game to reward myself for the 1 week of abstinence. I'm only half way from my goal of two weeks!
     
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  13. Jason_Tesla_19

    Jason_Tesla_19 Fapstronaut

    Congratulations on reaching a milestone in your relationship!
     
  14. ClassyKing

    ClassyKing Fapstronaut

    Thank you Jason_Tesla_19! I'm still giddy about it.
     
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  15. ClassyKing

    ClassyKing Fapstronaut

    Day 9

    This has been an interesting day so far, but let me start with what happened yesterday after my last entry;

    I went to work a little moodier than usual. One of my co-workers was teasing me as he always does, and a snapped at him for it. He kinda picked up on that and apologize, then proceeded to ask why I was acting weird. I trusted him enough to confide in him about my decision to start NoFap, even though I was nervous to talk about it. The only other people that know about this are my sister and my boyfriend. It helped to open up to someone else about it.

    Today I woke up with morning wood as per usual. In the past couple days I've noticed a couple things about myself; One I've been leaking Pre-cum a lot more than usual, and two my balls have been looking more engorged and full. I can only imagine these are signs of an eventual wet dream, or a spontaneous emission. At one point at I had a desperate feeling of finding porn so I could jerk off, but I just squashed it and got up out of bed to start the day.

    I'm having my first day off from work in the past week, and I spent half of it doing a tarot card reading. My mother invited a card reader for a get together with her girlfriends, and she asked me to have them done. Well i didn't get much insight from her. It was all stuff I already knew, my boyfriend and I are in a good place and that I won't find a career in art living here. I need to either move away to pursue my passion or stay home and work on finding a job in something else. I'm surprised her powers didn't pick up on how pent up I was -_-.

    That's it for now, day 9 is almost over. If something happens I might do a night entry, but just a boring Sunday afternoon for me today.
     
  16. Tiger uppercut!

    Tiger uppercut! Fapstronaut

    You’re doing awesome, my man! Being in a long distance relationship really sucks but you’re hanging in there. That shows a lot of character. I have no doubts you’ll reach your short term goal and even continue forward.
     
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  17. ClassyKing

    ClassyKing Fapstronaut

    Thanks man, I appreciate the support!
     
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  18. ClassyKing

    ClassyKing Fapstronaut

    Day 10

    Wow I made it to double digits! I feel really accomplished with myself. Unfortunately day 10 started off with a rough morning. I woke up around 6 with massive urges. hardon wouldn't go down, and the need to MO was just eating away at me. Had trouble going back to sleep after that. I felt really bad, because at one point I was going threw all the past sexual experiences I had in my head to try and ejaculate hands free, but that wasn't happening. I was being ridiculous all because of my stupid urges.

    I got up and took a cold shower and started my day, even if my mood was low at the moment. Spent a lot of time on the Forum to try and cope, and found some inspirational ted talks. Had a nice talk with @Jason_Tesla_19, that helped me raise my mood back up. I need to be careful and not depend too much on the forum though. I find myself checking it every few minutes to see whats new, or see if I got a new alert or a message. I have to try to stay focus on other things, and less on NoFap.

    Finished an article for a video game I'm writing about, I'll post the link when its finished if anyone wants to read it. I know there's a lot of gamers on here! About to go to work, and stay until midnight for the Madden 19 release. Gawd I hate sports games, and the people who play them are some of the worst. Wish me luck guys.
     
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  19. Tiger uppercut!

    Tiger uppercut! Fapstronaut

    Hey now...I enjoy sports games too.
     
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  20. ClassyKing

    ClassyKing Fapstronaut

    Lol, sorry tiger! I did say some not all
     
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