Check in Wed, Mar 16

Just back from yoga. The usual long day. The day started well with O by means of 69ing. No PM and no real temptation to it.

I've read from relatively vetted sources that most of us have a primary sexual fantasy used with masturbation and another for coital. If a norm of sorts, I've not been so constructed for many years. I wonder if those of us into online video P have lost this possible norm. I wonder if it comes back as P use recedes. I also wonder if daily people watching, in my case man watching, is a different and normal repository for fantasy filler during coital sex?

I, in the absence of P or in the combination with P, use internalized photo-like shot memories of men I noted during the day as sexy and appealing. About half the time at the time of observation I am not aware of the internal camera shot. I become aware during coital sex. I was certainly awake to a couple of these photo shots, these video shots of attractive men today as I climaxed this morning. Something a little different to worry myself about.