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Discussion in 'Uncategorized Reboot Logs' started by Chase !, Dec 5, 2018.
I am a severe porn addict trying to recover from this since 2 years...
Relapsed on Dec 6, 2018
The first three days were so much of urges, headache and flashback filled. I am still facing all of these while writing this Journal. However, i am trying to focus more and more on studying as my exams are on Dec 21. Sometimes i feel like fuck and watch porn and masturbate but i usually remind me that "i don't have anymore time to do so". I will be lifting weights and some exercises from today but i did some light exersices yesterday as well. At night when i sleep, i feel so many urges that i wish i had a wife but as i am just a 21 year old fella, i need to concentrate on NoFap and studies and offcourse on my future. Urges are really very high and top at night making my studies to suffer little bit. But i think i am finding some silly excuses to relapse that's it. Will update my journal very soon.
Relapsed on Mon, Dec 10 2018
What happened Chase? It wasn't at night I presume, so was it a silly excuse to relapse? What happened this time bro?
Some really bad excuses and zero discipline. Also some big exam pressures. Thank you for reading this crap relapse journal. Another Day 1 starts...
Relapsed on Dec 12, 2018 (2:02 AM)
Relapsed on Dec 12, 2018 (5:00 PM) I gave in to porn flashbacks...
Hey buddy, I do not regard this thread as a crap release journal. You are pouring out your heart in the face of multiple challenges to your goal of self-control of sexual urges. Anyone with a lived experience of this knows how hard it is man.
You have relapsed twice today, but you didn't just look at hard core porn. You recalled the memory of it perhaps and lost control by masturbating mate. Really, you need to find something wholesome to replace those flashbacks with. Because if you push out dirty content from your mind, it will come back, unless you replace it with something wholesome Chase !
Thank you for your kind words
Failing in that internal exam has scared me so much. Now the finals are from Dec 21 and i wasted around 2 hrs a day just in PMO. I am really disguised by that. Flashbacks come outta nowhere but i know that it's just a process and i am looking to it. I did some good discipline things today.
Day 1 (Dec 13, 2018)
I just ate bananas yesterday for dinner. Had no urges at night. I studied from morning to evening. Had a very spicy lunch and immediately got urges to watch porn after that. I controlled and started working out. Tomorrow morning i am going to start yoga and have a clean diet...thats the resolution for day 2.
Relapsed on Dec 19, 2018
Day 1 (Dec 22, 2018)
Was a beautiful day
Spent whole day studying for exams as my exams are day after tomorrow
Diet was not good becoz i ate instant noodles at dinner
Urges were not there as such. Had some flashbacks but it was clearly managable
Didn't do many self improvement things becoz i had no time.
Hi Chase !
As you have finished your exams you have time for this: http://commonwealth-publishing.com/wp-content/uploads/2014/08/YBOP-27-August-Commonwealth.pdf
It is THE BOOK of everything about P.
+The movies "Don Jon", "Shame" and "Thanks For Sharing" (combined with the book I just linked) are great as well to get rid of P forever.
Talking from experience
Thank You Sir
Day 1: Jan 1, 2019
The year has started and so is my NoFap journey once again.
My exam's weren't that good. Every questions in my last exam were the one which didn't read .
Today was the first day of college after the exams. Had just one lecture and then i was free. I couldn't make any eye contact with anyone and was full of anxiety. My acne has become worse and my hairfall is clearly visible. Today during afternoon i was feeling so many urges and negative thoughts. I act very wierdly in my college around people. They can smell that i am a depression or some other kind of case who is better to left alone
Did 3 sets of pushups and squats. Looking forward to many self improvement things from tomorrow slowly slowly as doing too much itself causes me depression. Today's self improvement session was not upto the mark.
Will be keepiny eyes lower infront of any girl.
This whole Dec went PMOing. The whole year went struggling with anxiety, acne and shame.
Day 1 (Jan14, 019)
Woke up at 10AM as it was a holiday. Started the day with my coffee. Did some yoga and breathing exercises but due to laziness got bored very easily. Did some workout in the evening. All day was good somehow.
While browsing net, i saw a bikini girl which made me get bad brain fog.
Procastinated many things like studying, brushing teeth before bed, reading some NoFap PDFs, washing bike.
Day 2 Resolution:
Wake up at 9 AM and do Yoga and Exercise
Look everyone in the eye at college
Brush two times
Mop the house
Read hanuman chalisa (i am a Hindu)
Workout at evening
Read a pdf regarding NoFap
Study for exams
I will rate 1st Day: 2 / 5 :-!
Day 2 (Jan 15, 019)
Woke up at 9:45 AM. Did some yoga in the morning. Went to college and attented lectures.
A girl in my class has a very attractive body. She triggered me so much i constantly ogled at her ****... That gave me a sudden brain fog. My mood got immediately changed and i started getting frustrated. I know it's not that girl's fault but a porn addicts brain functions like that. Came back and did yoga and breathing exercises. Didn't do any workout which i regret. Didn't study as well.
I will rate this day 1.5 / 5 as it wasn't any productive.