Hi Fapstrounauts! I'm a girl student and I'm 20 years old. I'm relatively new here (started NoFap at the beginning of May). I'm creating this thread 'cause I really need to feel that I'm not alone with this problem. Need some strength and inspiration from someone that gets my difficulties. And I only realized these needs when I relapsed on the 23rd of this month (I was on day 49 back then). And that happened just because I stopped believing in the future outcomes. Here's my story ... I started masturbating when the movie "Bel Ami" went out (2012). So I was ... 14. Since then, it was a regular thing. Sometimes every day of the week. Some other time twice a day. And when life became busier, two / three times a week. In the beginning, they were easy, simple and not-more-than-5/10-minutes sessions. Then, the pornography started being more exotic, complex, hardcore ... And the masturbation started to last longer and longer ... And nowadays I need almost an hour to come (sometimes some more). And I need to see various things until I orgasm. Pornography or manga hentai. I did not realize that this was a problem until I started my first sexual relationship with my current girlfriend. It's a new thing. 2 months since I started having sexual intercourse with her and 0 orgasms on my part. And I'm sure that she is not the problem. We are very open about what we want and do not want. Also: she commits very well to the thing. And I realize (or sense) that the wires on my brain are addicted to pornographic masturbation - everything that is outside that is strange. On the other hand, I think that I'm better. I have more pleasure now than on my first sexual episodes. But sometimes I believe that the feeling of "I'm feeling better and having more pleasure" is a comfortable lie that I impose on myself and start focusing on "I did not come with her already, so Pornography is not the problem.". But, if pornography (and everything that comes along with it) is the problem, it's more than expectable that 2 months are not enough to heal 6 years of addiction. So here it is... Hope that someone sees in here something that helps... And if someone out there sympathizes with this, feel more than welcome to post a reply. Let's just not stop believing on the purposes of this fight.