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Can Dinosaurs be Fapstronauts, too?

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by RedZilla, Oct 21, 2017.

  1. RedZilla

    RedZilla New Fapstronaut

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    Hey, I'm Red. 20 years old, male and straight. I've been masturbating since the start of Highschool (13 years old) and have been doing so ever since. I honestly thought nothing of it at the time and felt it was absolutely normal and necssary for a kid my age. Growing up sex had a huge influence in my culture and it was what most of the other kids and adults talked and bragged about having.

    At some point, I felt like if I didn't masturbate to relieve myself of this pent up anxiety caused by teenaged hormones then I'd eventually had to have sex which was frightening at the time due to rampant fear-mongering caused by Teen pregnancy ads. To me, sex was played up like this huge gamble where cons would outweigh the pros and if you messed up there was absolutely no way to redeem yourself, so I chose to masturbate as the lesser of the two evils.

    At the time it just felt like a basic necessity, having to cage up those unsavoury thoughts and feelings which were heavily stigmatized, in order to function like an ordinary person. It was great for awhile, I was praised for how celibate I was and was often called things like "pure" and "innocent". This sort of behaviour was great for having females friends because they saw me as a guy who didn't just want to have sex.

    Things were great... But eventually, I started to feel this sudden lack of energy and motivation. I was unaware of what was going on or what caused it and never did I suspect it to be masturbating. I felt stagnant and pretty soon I just stopped caring. The world appeared uneventful and boring, I took up all sorts of hobbies, sports and interests in order to change this bleak outlook but I never stuck with any of them because they never brought me any more pleasure than simply masturbating.

    Now I'm older and this outlook never really changed, my academic life was ruined because studying or going to classes seemed like a waste. None of it made me happy or brought any pleasure. Frustrated with not knowing what to do I essentially became a "waste man" (bum) who just lays around the house playing video games and fapping to porn. I wasn't happy but I was content living like that, though deep down I was disgusted.

    Any attempts at change, I couldn't commit to and I just simply resigned myself to always being content. Then on one fateful day (Today), I stumbled upon a youtube video ( ) explaining the idea of NoFap and the side effects/consequences of frequent masturbation. As if searching for an answer I continued to watch as each symptom matched me exactly and after visiting the website mentioned in the youtube video I decided to join and start this massive introduction post explaining what masturbation meant to me growing up and how it affected my life.

    Now I'm not solely blaming masturbation for why I ended up here as there are plenty of factors that contributed to it but it's somewhere to start and like the cliche goes it's good to start somewhere when cleaning up a mess.

    Tl;dr

    I hope to meet good people here and thanks in advance for all the tools given to me at my disposal to better tackle my addiction which has plagued me for a very long time. ^^
     
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  2. Hope your journey will be filled with success. I randomly came across nofap on youtube and one night.. in the middle of the night, I decided to join. Have learned so much here. I can relate to what you said about masturbation being the lesser of two evils. As a Christian... sex before marriage is a big no no.. and this is how I rationalised my habits not knowing that it would lead to decreasing my chances of proper social interaction. But I never made the connection at the time and throughout high school there was no proper guidance from other mature males.. only teens like myself who where either equally in the dark or had gone WAY overboard into sexual promiscuity. Anyways... it is all better now. Tomorrow you will be able to accomplish more by making a conscious decision... that will lead to another. God bless and keep you.
     
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