I haven’t had a self-induced orgasm in a few months. Yay for me. Sex has improved and I am rebooting successfully. I don’t have foul desires nor do I edge by myself BUT I am having small urges to masturbate after having good sex. I know I’m not going to but I decided to note this feeling because people think the chaser effect is a strictly guy thing. I guess it’s also worth mentioning that I haven’t came during sex (yet) but I’m physically responding so much more and it gives me hope. If anything, I feel like sex is edging for me. I want to go as close to monk mode as possible because I want to have an orgasm from sex alone. I don’t want him to finger me because it makes me crave the wrong sensation. I’m not going to lie. This is hardcore discipline and I should be a levitating buddha by the end of my life. I just want to have intercourse-only based orgasms! I become a nasty, pushy person when I have orgasms using other methods. I start craving the orgasm and not the sex. So that’s why I’m denying orgasms from other methods. And like I said, I’m getting very aroused during sex now whereas before I would go through the motions and wait for him to cum so he could finger me. That is NOT intimacy!