Being gay and muslim and trying to reboot is like hell

The last 10 days been so damn hard, all guys start looking so fucking delicious sometimes i feel i'm gonna self-ejaculate in the street, also the thought that i may never try the real thing is driving me crazy,no PMO in 92 days is good and is helping me alot but i rather if i die to be honest.

 

I'm sure it's extremely difficult, but I have a lot of respect for believers that sacrifice for their beliefs. It really puts a sock in the idea that believers choose to believe because it's "comforting" to them. Some people dont even bother to fathom the lives of sacrifice many believers live for their faith. I hope your faith can get you through this.

 

I feel like i'm stuck between two hell, killing yourself is forbidden in Islam, being gay is also forbidden, i don't know how much i can keep going

 

Killing yourself is not an option. The urge will subside--just hang in there.

Have you tried joining the LBG NoTap group? Many of them can relate to what you're going through with.

 

If you think having sex is the only thing worth living for then you have issues that go beyond just your faith. Have you sought professional help for your thoughts on suicide? If not then maybe look into it.

 

I'm a 28 years old guy and never had a kiss or even holds hand with someone who i like, i'm not some horny animal only looking for sex, i want to have a relationship, an intimate experience with an actual person, do you understand me?

 

Thanks. I will do that.

 

Very helpful,i will look for a gay imam. Thank you.

 

Most assuredly. Just have to find them. May be outside this forum but definitely others that share your pain.

 

I understand you now that you've clarified your situation. I'm not a fucking mind reader.

 

Christians believe in both a physical burning and spiritual burning. The physical is entirely possible according to their beliefs since they also believe in resurrected bodies.

 

No @Azabu it is not the same! Did you not read: "the thought that I may never try the real thing is driving me crazy"? @JoeYo is in a religion that prohibits homosexuality in his country. He may even be in a Muslim country which kills gay guys for their homosexuality. You have to admit - that is more difficult than being a heterosexual in any country, right!

 

I don't mean to offend you but you sound so damn ignorant on the subject, please don't ever talk about something you don't understand simple as that. My father didn't divorce my mother, unfortunately he died and that's got nothing to do with me being gay, again for the 999999 times i didn't choose to be gay, i didn't choose to " have feminine feelings" about men , i hate being like this, since i can remember (age 4-5) i always been attracted to boys, back then i didn't even know what the "gay" word meant or lesbain or even knew that i'm gay, i kept having these feelings for boys who were with me at class or school or in my street but i thought it was normal thing until i turned 14-15 and then i start educating myself about the subject and then i knew the hard truth that i'm simply attracted to the same sex as me. Imams don't know a damn thing about anything these days let alone something as complicated as human sexuality, they will tell you something that everyone know it's forbidden to be gay that is. A simple advice to you bro don't ever give advice to someone gay you may know because you know nothing about it.

 

Hey bro. You are muslim and gay? I respect you. I don't know how to help 'cause I'm ethero. I can only reccomand you to rembere that the rewards is equal to the challenge. So for you just rejecting your natural istinct can permise you to go in Paradyse. Rember that if you kill yourself all your efforts will be vain.