Being consumed by my lust

Please, I need some kind of advice or explanation. I've had a porn addiction for quite a while now, but as of recently, it has gotten to unbearable levels. When I was cripplingly depressed 4 years ago, I was an addict of hypnosis files and hypnosis spirals. I mostly listened to ones that would increase my lust and would make me submissive, and I listened to them almost every week. About 6 months after that phase, I realized that it was destroying my schoolwork and was making me turn against my friends and family due to the anger it was causing me. I tried to listen to some suggestion removals, and they worked for a week, and then it came back in full force. Nowadays, I can't go a single day without having a lustful thought come into my head and nearly take control of me, urging me to listen to hypnosis files again. I believe every single day that I'm stronger than this, that I can distract myself from this, but I've been losing sleep and now my college work and my job performance is starting to lower. I'm so close to having a mental breakdown, and this will be the second time I will have been hospitalized due to my anguish and hopelessness over my lust.

I need something to remove these suggestions. I don't want to lose myself. I don't want to become a slave.

 

Thank you. I've been thinking that part of the reason why this is still in my mind is due to my hateful obsession with it, as well...