There has been some really good advice given in this forum so far. Wondering if you have taken any of it? We can’t stay sober with willpower. I have proven this with 10 years of failure. And seems like you’re proving this to yourself. Are you ready to do whatever it takes to stay sober???????? If so, it involves doing a little bit of work. If not, then you will most likely continue on your sexual degradation journy..... I’m not judging you. This disease is the worst and I hate it!! It took me 22 years to finally quit. I onlyy have 93 days sober so, I’m not out of the woods yet, but I have had relief from it for the first time in 22 years. If you take the advice of others in here who are staying sober (AND have traveled as far down the addiction path as you) then you too can stay sober.