Become the best version of myself

From today I start my self-improvement challenge.
First deadline 1 jan
No pmo
No tv/ computer/ net surfing
Study for my exam on 30 and 31
No time wasting
Making my day productive

 

Yesterday also I started studying from 11 pm. Then around 3am i was eating food. So I though lets watch some tv. Then i mindlessly started watching it and then watched till 7 am. Then from 7-9 am mindlessly started surfing net for useless things. Now i am watching a cricket match.
I have an exam on 30 and 31 which is very important for me. But i have given up hope as I feel I can't Complete my syllabus and won't be able to clear it.
I have the right intent in mind to be productive everyday. To give my 100% but I don't do it eventually. Idon't know why do I fail repeatedly

 

From today i start my journey to change myself. To work hard everyday and utilise my time effectively.
It is high time I need to embrace a healthy lifestyle. The main goal being that I want to become the best version of myself. I will have to remove all doubts and inhibitions and would have to persevere hard and work like a machine.
I won't give up this time. I would achieve my goals at any cost.
First week- Goals( start with small steps to effect a big change)
No pmo
Gym
Medicines
Study goals
No time waste
Ted talks/ Edx/ unacademy - half hour for intellectual growth
Read books - this week I will read the power of habit and my experiments with truth - atleast half an hour
I will start taking these steps ffectively from 3rd Jan as right now I am out of my hometown having come for my exam.

 

My streak is 5 days and 10 hours. I am feeling relieved to be out of the compulsive loop of pmoing 5 times everyday. I had gone into a frenzy where I was masturbating every 3-4 hours once I had done it first time in the day.

Now I am concentrating on improving myself. Becoming the best version of myself. Here is my review for yesterday.

To do list
Gym - done
Yoga- done
Book - read 5 pages
No tv/ tv show/ YouTube- done
Study- for just an hour

Other than this, I was busy yesterday with some work. I had to fill a form for my exam. After doing that I met my friends. We chilled out and had dinner. Then i went to meet my school friend, had a chat and then came back home. Before sleeping I did some household chores and gave a massage to my mom for her joints pain.

Review- 8/10

 

Thank you for your valued suggestion. Will try to act upon these. I want other to be part of my journey and help me with guidance and support at every pitfall I encounter.

Thanx everyone!!
Cheers

 

What is cosmic master hypnosis? I can very well find it out from the net. But it would be great if u could just give a brief description.

Thanks
Cheers!

 

Suddenly, I Woke up at 4:30 am today. Maybe because it has been 5 days I have been trying to adapt a healthy and productive lifestyle. You might be wondering what is the connection. But I have earlier also experienced this sudden urge to make my day better than yesterday many a times. I start feeling great about myself and become very active. I start following the rational decision maker in my head and experience that I have a natural tendency to improve everyday. Ultimately the goal remains to become the best version of myself.

To do list
Yoga- done ( 15 minutes)
Gym- done
Study- three hours at time of writing this journal
Book- Read 5 pages
Tv show/ YouTube/ match - watched one hour of match

I will try study for 2 more hours as I am feeling the need to make atleast a 8/10 day.
I controlled my urge to watch the entire match. So that was a positive. But for this month I need to keep a strict check on my urges as I am really low on self control.

Hopefully, I will make my day productive as much as I can.

Its Good night for today.
Cheers

 

Try writing some of your long term goals and also you can prepare a to do list for the day.
Stay strong and never back down from your targets.
Now that you have embarked on this journey to become the best version it is inevitable that you will face numerous obstacles and disappointments. So the most important part is to become mentally strong.
This remains the purpose of my journey too.

Hope you have a great first day.
Cheers!

 

Should I enjoy my day or should I just think of everything other than studying as waste of time.

Last night I studied till 1 am. Then I chatted with mom for 2 hours . She wasn't feeling well. So, I just wanted to make her feel better mentally and forget about her sickness. I got up at 7 am. Then I went to gym at 8:30 am. Came back at 10. Then went to see my doctor for my stomach ailment. Again, He told me it is related to stress. After that I went to shopping. I came back from shopping at around 7 pm. Then I just passed my time with friends and family till 10. Then I slept.

So, at the end of the day I felt I had wasted my day as I didnt do anything productive. I didn't study at all which is my priority target. Now I am looking to make this Sunday productive. I need to compensate for yesterday as well. Lets see what can I achieve.

As always I will give my best.

Cheers!

 

Yes, exam related stress and mostly due to the silly reason of not having a girlfriend ever in my life. I have got depressed many a times due to this.

But I cannot waste my time pondering about these useless things. I have to become mentally strong and achieve my goals.
Goal- Never feel low again. Great things are waiting for me in future. Can't afford to get depressed as I have been showered with so many privileges and facilities all my life by my parents. Just need to be grateful with what I have.

Cheers!