Battling one addiction is tough, but try battling two. Could alcohol possibly be worse than PMO?

Let me explain a little about my self. I am a 28 year old man. I actually began drinking alcohol and getting drunk around the age of 12. I didn't drink non stop from this age, but all through my early, mid, late teens and twenties I have got steaming drunk a lot. It's basically been a norm to be, to go out a few days a week and get really drunk, and this has went on more weeks than not from the age of around 12 all the way until now 28.

I started masturbating probably around the age of 11, but I didn't actually start PMOing until I was 18. When I was 18 I got my first laptop, and I very quickly began PMO binging. This PMO binging heavily went on for about 9 years. When I say PMO binging I mean it was extreme. When I was at my worst I would say I was PMO binging about 30 times a week and it was hour long PMO sessions. This sort of behaviour went on for about 9 years, and can still sometimes even happen now, but no where near as much. I was still heavily drinking at the same time, and for some reasons the extreme hangover caused me to go in to extreme PMO binges. For some reason hangovers make me extremely horny. For nearly a decade I have went out heavily drinking a few times a week and when I have had bad hangovers have went on days long PMO binges, and I even PMOed on the days I wasn't hungover.

When I was 17 I actually experienced my first proper panic attack, this was caused by drinking and taking cocaine the night before. The following day my heart felt like it was beating 100 miles an hour and I thought I was going to have a heart attack. This is when my anxiety started. It started off with health anxiety and then transitioned in to more mental anxiety, panic attacks, agitation, brain fog, concentration problems, a feeling like I was going mad ext.

So a few years ago I realised my dick wasn't working correctly and then that's when I searched online and discovers yourbrainonporn, nofap ext. I won't lie I was very sceptical for about 2 years. But then the more stuff I watched and read about it the more I believed it. Since about April 2018 I have 100% knew PMOing causes sexual dysfunctions, and I have also believed for a long time it causes mental health problems.

So since April last year I have had a lot of streaks and relapses. But I have felt a lot of changes since April last year, mentally and with my sexual functioning. I also went through long periods of time since last year stopping and cutting down on alcohol.

I'll be honest for the last while I thought PMO was the prime cause of my mental health problems. But now I am somewhat wondering if alcohol might actually be worse. Basically over the last 3-4 months my drinking style has changed. I have stopped going out partying and just had a drink in the house. I also started getting longer and longer streaks of no PMO. But over maybe the last month my I was drinking about 4 half bottle of jack Daniels a week. You need to understand me drinking one half bottle of Jack Daniels in a night is like me drinking moderately. But over a week ago I actually haven't felt worse in a long time mentally, I was having extreme anxiety and depression. Over a week ago I was actually getting extreme suicidal thoughts. But during this time I actually had nearly a 3 week streak of no porn/artificial sexual stimulation. Because when I go on those extreme PMO binges with a hangover that's usually after extreme drinking. But a half bottle of Jack Daniels in a night didn't seem to make me go on a big PMO binge. But yeah basically I hadn't been using porn but had been drinking heavily and my mental heath was really bad.

So now I am wondering if alcohol is actually more of a problem to me than PMO. But the thing is why do I need to believe that only one is the cause of my mental health problems? Maybe Alcohol and PMO are causing my mental health problems?

I seem to find it difficult concentrating on stopping two things. I have been more obsessed with stopping PMO. But now I am thinking I really need to put my attention in to stopping alcohol? I feel really overwhelmed with everything.

Last week I did go out partying for the first time in ages with my friends and drank an extreme amount of alcohol. The following day I went in to an extreme PMO binge that lasted 4 days. So this ended 2 days ago. I hadn't drank any alcohol in a week. Today I felt really good mentally and I was out for lunch. At lunch I had 2 double Jack Daniels with my lunch. Tonight I have felt this morbid sadness low feeling. But I'm not sure if that was caused from that 4 day long PMO binge? Or from Those 2 doubles of Jack Daniels today? It's frustrating not knowing what's causing my mental health problems?