How you balance your own self-care, relationship recovery and all the responsibilities of parenting/adulting? I hate the grey area in the aftermath of DDay. I am so busy tending to twin babies and a toddler but I feel like I’m constantly mentally absent, on my phone researching. Searching for something tangible in this whirlwind of betrayal, recovery, and moving forward. I’m half assing everything it seems. Everything is diluted and I go from feelings of gloomy disconnect to denial/optimism. Probably a little depression lingering. How long until I should function normally? Ever? There’s no clear answer. Sometimes I feel strong for embarking on rebuilding and sometimes I feel weak for putting up with over a decade of my husband sexually reaching out to countless other women via chats while I was neglected and at my wits end wondering what was wrong with our marriage.