No, it’s not what you think. I’m not some schizo who’s “hearing voices” and seeing people that aren’t there like Joan of Arc or John Nash or some shit, I just have an inner monologue/inner voice that plays in my brain when I do things. And he is a complete asshole most of the time. This inner voice keeps calling me stupid, a failure, good for nothing, you have no talent, you suck at what you do and making friends and girlfriends, you will never succeed, you will never find your niche, you’re a piece of shit. Sometimes I research articles that give advice on how to control these things and habits to get into and whatnot, but what frustrates me is that it almost always is written for WOMEN, and by a WOMAN (the articles end up saying things like “don’t feel bad because your boyfriend broke up with you,” and other chick-flick Eat Pray Love bullshit). At the risk of being mistaken for a sexist pig, there is of course nothing wrong with self-help articles written by women, for women (in fact they’re quite necessary), and I’ve followed quite a few, but in terms of the content and the way they’re written, it seems as if most of them are directed at that gender as a target audience. Feel free to disagree, but that’s the impression I’m getting. But I am a MAN (at least I think I am). Why? Likely because men generally don’t think like this (have the voice that criticizes them 24/7 in their head), but I do. It’s assuming they’re always confident, always logical, always sure of themselves and making themselves useful, or going out and being “badasses.” I’m surprised I haven’t been fired from being a “man” yet, because of how neurotic I am and can tend to feel. I’m kidding, of course, but you know what I mean. Is my view on this situation totally warped? Am I just going to be an unsure, neurotic SOB for life, as much as I try not to be? Certain new-age folks may oppose the point of view that mean use more the logical part of their brains, while women the emotional part. It’s certainly not true for all of them, and there’s nothing WRONG with that, but for the majority, this seems to be the way it is. Maybe the way my father raised me is clouding my judgment. Can I control these negative inner messages better and be more masculine this way?