Bad sexual experience

Junior987 · May 2, 2017

Hi, I have an embarrassing story to tell, hope that it you to be better and to live life they way you want. This story is hot off the press as it just happened.

My story starts back maybe 7 or 8 years ago, I met this girl, we will call her Wendy. She my younger brothers friend, very attractive but never bothered but in all actuality I was too chicken to express and go after what I want. As the years went by, we would flirt here and there.

She had a son a few years back. I had recently found out that she had split with the father of her child. This had brought a joy to me, as I had a chance to now peruse (feeling a little confident.) So I asked her out, we went out a few times, we had a good time.

So I went to her place tonight, we chilled and hung out. As I was about to leave, we kissed. Before you know it all our clothes are off. I reach for condom, look down...and my little friend has not showed up. In my head im thinking "it's ok, go back to kiss her and he come and join the party," go down on her and I get little hard so we started to have sex. This didn't last long, I turned her over to change positions, then I lost my erection. Feeling embarrassed and ashamed, I threw in the towel.

Now I'm in my room trying to not be angry about it, but this isn't something new. She asked if this has ever happened before I had lied at first but after said it wasn't. You know what, it's actually been happening thru out all my sexual life. I started masturbating at 15, I had sex after I had been masturbating for a bit, maybe for a couple months. After that, I habe felt desensitized.

My sexual experiences have not really been good, I'm not an asshole so women don't really call me out on it. But I want to have amazing sex, I want to be able an animal in the bedroom. I have had some really beautiful women fall into my hands, and I haven't been able to fuck them. It makes me hold back out of fear of not being able to perform. It's discouraging, this is what has lead me back to porn; back to comfort. I DON'T WANT PORN IN MY LIFE ANYMORE. This is not what I want, it fucks with my confidence in other parts of my life, I feel I would have been able to pursue other opportunities if I had the confidence in myself.

Trying to be optimist about it, I do feel angry for leaving another women dissatisfied, she shall be the last. I have had enough of this addiction and the effects it has had on me; no more.

Marcel0404 · May 2, 2017

Junior987 said: ↑

It's discouraging, this is what has lead me back to porn; back to comfort. I DON'T WANT PORN IN MY LIFE ANYMORE. This is not what I want, it fucks with my confidence in other parts of my life, I feel I would have been able to pursue other opportunities if I had the confidence in myself.

Trying to be optimist about it, I do feel angry for leaving another women dissatisfied, she shall be the last. I have had enough of this addiction and the effects it has had on me; no more.
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Looks like a real challenge in your life - to get rid of addiction. Will not be easy but will be worth the effort. And will take some time. Healing always needs time. Don't lose self-esteem, you are a wonderful person and actually I see your sincere longing to change your life.

Junior987 · May 2, 2017

Marcel0404 said: ↑

Looks like a real challenge in your life - to get rid of addiction. Will not be easy but will be worth the effort. And will take some time. Healing always needs time. Don't lose self-esteem, you are a wonderful person and actually I see your sincere longing to change your life.
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Thank you, yes I know it's going take some time; shit it has been 2 years really trying. I'm at the point where I'm really motivated to do it. I had gone maybe 2 weeks without PMO, this last week I had relapsed. Last night that had happened.

YOUR FAILURES ARE GOING TEACH YOU HOW TO BE SUCCESSFUL. This moment will be the motivation to fight the urges. I will need to have a better plan and prepare myself more.

Second_chance · May 12, 2017

Hey Junior, you are not the only one struggling. Let me tell you im 26 years old and despite i've been with many women i never felt sex as awesome as everyone pictures it. I've never been able to enjoy sex. I now know that it's because i've been PMO since i was younger as fuck. That lead me to frustrating sex experiences, for example: they do me a BJ and i felt it and everything but i cant finish. Im inside a girl and I cant finish either, it feels different but it's not as pleasurable as P and M. Now im dating a nice girl and a pretty one, probably the nicest girl i know, and i am having trouble to perform. I can't finish o it takes me forever, or i try to put a freaking condom and i loose my erection. It sucks from all angles, but i've discovered NoFap and YourBrainOnPorn and now i understand that i have a problem. Luckily i will get through this and get a second chance in life and re-discover sex. Be strong brother!

Freedom is a state of mind · May 21, 2017

Junior987 said: ↑

Hi, I have an embarrassing story to tell, hope that it you to be better and to live life they way you want. This story is hot off the press as it just happened. ...
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Hello! I had 3 experiences like that in the past, with different girls, so you are not alone in that. After I had longer streaks on nofap, I started to worry about not lasting too long with a girl, which (as far As I explained it for myself) caused performance anxiety - resulted in erectile disfunction - Dont worry about it too much, because it can get worse. Confidence is within yourself and you need to rebuild it. :- )

Alexhexvans · May 23, 2017

Hi, my name is Alex and im 18 years old.. i had the same thing as you do.. i dont know why it happened but i want to make it clear - dont be so worry about it! Just take your time and heal your addiction from porn and dont masturbate, i had sex yesterday 2 times and i wasnt 100% hard.. i try not to be so worry about it but it sometimes happen and.. even know i cant say i relapsed, this will be again day 1 for me..

aingdk11 · May 31, 2017

Junior987 said: ↑

Hi, I have an embarrassing story to tell, hope that it you to be better and to live life they way you want. This story is hot off the press as it just happened.

My story starts back maybe 7 or 8 years ago, I met this girl, we will call her Wendy. She my younger brothers friend, very attractive but never bothered but in all actuality I was too chicken to express and go after what I want. As the years went by, we would flirt here and there.

She had a son a few years back. I had recently found out that she had split with the father of her child. This had brought a joy to me, as I had a chance to now peruse (feeling a little confident.) So I asked her out, we went out a few times, we had a good time.

So I went to her place tonight, we chilled and hung out. As I was about to leave, we kissed. Before you know it all our clothes are off. I reach for condom, look down...and my little friend has not showed up. In my head im thinking "it's ok, go back to kiss her and he come and join the party," go down on her and I get little hard so we started to have sex. This didn't last long, I turned her over to change positions, then I lost my erection. Feeling embarrassed and ashamed, I threw in the towel.

Now I'm in my room trying to not be angry about it, but this isn't something new. She asked if this has ever happened before I had lied at first but after said it wasn't. You know what, it's actually been happening thru out all my sexual life. I started masturbating at 15, I had sex after I had been masturbating for a bit, maybe for a couple months. After that, I habe felt desensitized.

My sexual experiences have not really been good, I'm not an asshole so women don't really call me out on it. But I want to have amazing sex, I want to be able an animal in the bedroom. I have had some really beautiful women fall into my hands, and I haven't been able to fuck them. It makes me hold back out of fear of not being able to perform. It's discouraging, this is what has lead me back to porn; back to comfort. I DON'T WANT PORN IN MY LIFE ANYMORE. This is not what I want, it fucks with my confidence in other parts of my life, I feel I would have been able to pursue other opportunities if I had the confidence in myself.

Trying to be optimist about it, I do feel angry for leaving another women dissatisfied, she shall be the last. I have had enough of this addiction and the effects it has had on me; no more.
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Its gonna heal but its gonna be hard telling u truth u must push the hardest way hit gym eat healty socialise more do some martial arts.when ur testoterone level normal again and dopamine normal again u will be back again as a man.goodluck

Deleted Account · Jun 3, 2017

Junior987 said: ↑

Trying to be optimist about it, I do feel angry for leaving another women dissatisfied, she shall be the last. I have had enough of this addiction and the effects it has had on me; no more.
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THIS is the type of talk that brought me back here. I have had enough! All of those wasted opportunities i still cant believe i have never had a GF before... I foolishly ignored my PIED for years because to begin with i just was not meeting girls and i was having no sex. But this has started to changed and i accepted that its a real problem. I'm sick and tired of lying to girls and holding back for fear of what might happen time to beat this.

clarkjo12 · Jun 6, 2017

YES! I can't tell you how good it feels to be able to relate to others in similar positions in life.

I'm 25 myself. my last 3 sexual encounters were dismal, but progressivly better. Most recently I was talking with this 18 YO who dumped her long distance bf so we could be FWB all summer; My man BARELY made it to the party...needless to say she wasn't impressed.

Seemingly surrounded by darkness, I have seen the light...what I once knew, I now understand.

I vowed, from this day forward, to NEVER orgasm via masturbation, AGAIN!!!

I join you all now; on this reinvigorated journey of sexual conquest, to fulfill our destinies as women pleasing, toe curling sex gods!

The Wrestler · Jun 8, 2017

clarkjo12 said: ↑

I join you all now; on this reinvigorated journey of sexual conquest, to fulfill our destinies as women pleasing, toe curling sex gods!
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