So... it happened. I did PMO last night. The triggers: maybe alcohol and the fact that I didn't go to gym. Too much work. Maybe stress. I know these are not excuses. I am responsible. The good news: only 30 mins (compared to 4 usual hours) and only heterosexual P (not the usual "anything goes"). I feel a little sad and upset. Thanks for reading and for your comments.
These are all positive things. (Except the relapse of course) 1. Identified triggers. Yes absolutely alcohol and no exercise pushed you over the edge. No QUESTION. Especially the alcohol 2. Session was shorter than usual and less extreme viewing. Signs your time away did do some healing, now stop reopening the wound and let it fully heal this next go! 3. You feel let down. You recognize porn is bringing you down, bringing your energy down, wasting your life. You didn't justify it or make excuses. No excuses. Now the most important part. Get.Back.On.The.Horse Don't allow 1 bad day turn into a full on melt down. Rebound!
To kill my loneliness got my self a new TV and satellite ... Now I can watch Cartoons and maybe I can find my younger self of no porn again. God help me
DONT FALL BACK INTO THE ROUTINE. we all have relapsed it sucks. you can do this! we all are rooting for you