Back in the habit

So I've seen myself lately going Back to po rn. Ive been really good lately but recently ive gone and watched porn. I'm not as bad as I once was but for me its time to join support group, I let my pride get the best of me and didn't get help, because I thought I could do it on my own, but I can't. So now my wife is mad she just took off without her phone claiming i lied which I didnt. She hasnt beem asking about the porn problem but talking about.a dream about me talking to other women. And then she found an app on my phone that allows to go under incognito mode which I still don't know how it which app she used. I'm hoping she'll come back so I can go to a meeting. Feeling really crappy right now though I did fess up to something she really didnt catch me.doing. I'm real sad guys not sure how to deal.

 

Ive been good about the P and the O but the M part I'm having trouble with. It's still effecting my marriage it's a problem that no one really understands.